Riduan-My-Thoughts

2008-07-06T05:23:00.004+08:00

"Sunday morning rain is falling....."

maroon 5's sunday morning hit playing on my laptop as i am awake. hows everyone doin? hope things are goin great for everybodys weekend. mines goin swell as far as i can tell. slept till just before aftn yesterday(saturday). woke up and had BRUNCH before goin shower and prep myslf to head out to rochor. kinda chillax ride on my own there, no one to dilly dally or to pressure me to double up, so it really was my own pace, own time own target as i wld like to put it.

did sm photoshooting here and there, kinda worid cuz the skies were lookin reali dark. climbed up blocks, chat wiv a coupla ppl. went around and around before headin off to gabes site which was way on the other side, smhow i took too much sights i kinda head off in the longer route. one way leads to another i found my way there wivout even knowing. i was behind laselle instead of being infront. so snapped away sm pics before the raindrops fell( raindrops keep falling on my head hummmdeeedummm...). and i headed back to home, where another crappy task lay ahead.

reached there arnd 3 and makan first, cant work wivout eating right. so i ate and then did sm chit chatting wiv the relatives(i hate it when they correct me when i called em cik(aunt) instead of nek(grandma? grandaunt?) -_-) before i know it its evening. DANG! the final ep of Lord of The Rings!

went back home, washed up and sat infront of the teeveee just right before em rohirims whoop the orcs asses at minas trith. then that witch king got owned by that girl who got rejected by aragorn. legolas doin slick moves. and then the final battle at the black gates where everyone whooped everyones ass and frodo lost his finger in mt doom and that bozo gollum went for a dive wiv the ring in a fuckin lava pit and yadayadayada.....the end. YES!! three weeks of watching LOTR is done!! along wiv star wars double trilogy, i tink this is another gudd movie trilogy which has nvr gotten me bored...

orite sm pics of my adventures today.... enjoy....

my site

downcast weather didn hamper my efforts.

fisherman prepping for their catches

a lil girl whose mum was confined to a wheelchair, kinda sad, i wanted to snap em together but it was hard cuz the mom was staring at me when i tried to shoot.

all the way from rochor and i can still see a glimpse of the wheel

proof i was here

almost slipped in this dang mud

the creepiest shortcut i've ever seen

VIEWS FROM MY BLOCK AT THE HIGHEST POINT

clouds look like its forming a cyclone out there

ships out at sea always wanted to be on board one and sail the world

opposite block

the highway across

oh wells thats all for now, enjoy ur sunday....ciaoz.

2008-07-04T23:27:00.004+08:00

Alrite, went out wiv her today, its been awhile since i went out wiv her and so i decided to meet her for the whole of today. Didn tink of project the whole day and even told her to not talk abt the landscape as we were walking around. Caught a movie and went to had a late lunch at marina sq where we chilled chatting and looking at the marina bay. Window shopped a while and read a football mag at Times before i sent her home. Wonderful day, thou my bad had to turn down the guys asking me out, my bad fellas. Oh wells tmw gota help prep my relatives weddin next door, but still tinking if i wanna help or not, oh wells let tmw come and deal with then....

ciaoz

2008-07-02T01:08:00.002+08:00

Ok my bad, as i hav just taken notice, the previous posting

wasnt my first posting of this year. hahahaz i blogged in the

months of Jan and Feb. Damned how fast time has passed>

Life's been ok, lots of fun, lots of love as well.

Gona be my final year in SP and next year imma be

in the Army(hopefully). Seems so much is happening

in sucha lil time.

But above all that, i still hav to face a day at

a time, so thats just gona make the whole waiting

process a whole lot slower, i hope.

Anyways, hope fred perry wont fuckin sue me when they've

noticed i took their logo design for my front pg.

Cant help it, LOVE em. Too bad the price dont love

me at all. Oh wells.

To those who hasnt had an update abt my current stat,

i am now gona be a year wiv my girlfriend which is

kinda amazing and thankful for that, despite all the

ups and downs. Especially now that i am laggin in the

accounts department, sorry yeah...

Anyways its kinda late, gotta wake up early tmws, cant

be late for school or a my lect gona screw me agn, aiz

more of that when i hav time to explain what happened

the day before.

Gotta go ppl and hav a great Wednesday Morning!

Ciaoz

2008-07-01T21:38:00.002+08:00

Greetings

My first blog entry of this year, has been along while since i done this.
So i decided to start afresh with a new skin and stuff like that, hope u guys love it.
(the fred perry logo cuz i love the stuff)

Anyways, will keep on bloggin as time allows me aites.

Love ya'all

Ciaoz

2008-02-07T00:51:00.000+08:00

Feb 6th 1958

and yes they have....lets win the Treble again.

me and her

pics on the last outing we had
sorry dear, gona be bz with work and attachment and stuff.
dont worie, we'll have dinner and stuff ok.
love you!

nitez ya all.

2008-01-26T00:11:00.000+08:00

BZ BZ BZ

hokayyyy i am goin year 3 guys

WOOPIE!

my gf too, see i told u u would do well, always worie worie, lol

paul and gabe and all the girls, hn,fish,hq,jeff they all

but hopefully the rest oso la, like meng like that.

hmmmm when to tamp mall wiv my gf
my whole life, i've never reali explored the east side of singapore
u ask me go the west side, i know, but east, i feel lost
so yeah, we met and makan ramen ten at hrbrfront, lol, thanx dear for belanjaing me
then we went off to tamp mall, by taking bus, hehehe
slept most of the time, i like it when we just sleep on each others shoulder, gives me a peace of mind
i tot wldnt take that long but in the end veryy veryy long
lol
so long that we were late for the movie 27 dresses
in the first place ar, she was the one excited abt the movie, but in the end i tink i was the one
more excited la!! hahahaz
then makan agn at long john, she and her clam chowder, eeeee dont like
lol
oh and did u know century square is also a mall? and its just beside tamp mall
and it also has a cinema
crazy
two shoppping mall, two cinema
within ten metre of eeach other
lol

THANKS FOR BRINGING ME AROUND THE PLACE NAZ!!

oh and psssst, gues what guys, 2 of my aunts and a cousin of mine alreadi knows abt my gf
lol
hope they wont paotoh me
lol

sm scary things about me, lol

What Mohamad Riduan Ghazali Means

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!
You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.
You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience.You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along.But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

today went to johor wiv paul and gabe
goodness lots of things man, foooh
first we met at kranji, waited for gabe to reach
then took the causeway link in to msia
cb kia, stupid machine that automatic go thru
and my passport i tink they wrong side smore
lol
had to go the manual side
then the first thing bought in msia was paul's rokok
then after that we headed to have brunh at KFC
paul asked for upsize and the fella looked blur sia!! at msia no upsize la bro, lol besar atau kecik
lol
after that we shop for like 4-5 hours
did u know time passed very slow the further north u go
lol
we shopped and went around and around the damned place until i tink the ppl know us oredie
then in one shop, me and gabe were lookin at shirts, the skali got one was pepe jones or smthin
then the sales girl was talking to us then skali i shouted PEPEK JONES LA GABE!!!
lol i said PEPEK!! IN MSIA!! WHERE ALL TALK MALAY!!
omg
lol
paisei
paul buy shoe ar, like trying to pick the best taugay out of the whole pile of taugays
pick here pick there pick pick everywhere

HIGHLIGHT OF THE TRIP

we went to MAKAN!!!
dinner was gerek siallll
paul brought us to this street selling makan and stuff
as i can talk malay(well i tot the ppl dont know speak eng, they do actuali lol) me and paul went
around ordering the stuff
guess what
this is what we had
-2 big stingrays=28 ringgit o.price 30 ringgit
-4 drinks
-kangkong belacan
-nasi putih and nasi goreng pataya
-chicken, beef, mutton satay
all for 60 ringgit!!

lol
eat until can die sia
shit like crazy la
the guys say this is our new lepak place, johor
lol

ok sm pics, sadly no pics from the johor trip yet, gabe haven pass to me

this one from the sheesha that time

sorry blurry pics, not i take one....

alrite, nites ya all!!

p.s: great 6 months!

2008-01-12T22:43:00.000+08:00

M.I.A

WELCOMING THE NEW YEAR 2008

well didn reali party la
no time, and also, sm other thing came up, hmmmm
bz bz bz
and soon next month very very bz bz bz

my ITP is coming up!
lol
i am attached to JTC at The Summit
wicked

big company, big expectations

sm pics that has long been overdued

scooping up crap wiv Gabe T and Gabe S

deep in concentration

everyone working hard

final day, racing against time and also fighting mother nature's rain

digging the bloody pond

tired of the old man's nagging so insted i just sat down and filled up the pond

0200am. 4 more hours before i'm home

pool wiv my bro erwin at his old crib in depot
haven played pool a long time since, this pic was taken a coupla weeks back

went out wiv gabe t and paul the other night
sheeshaing, man it was nice. it was to celebrate our presentation, finally it was over.
bumped into our classmates there and they joined us as well
the pics for that is smwhere, need to find it la

then also SP open house, was at the BE booth wiv gabe T
it was a struggle to even stay preoccupied, cuz no one was coming to talk to us
but we had a task to do, and it was entrusted to us by our year 1 lecturer, wont put names.
he said 'give to the brochures to the pretty ones oni, girls, if not pretty say we run out of brochure and show them the way to other schools...'

HAHAHA well i gues he gona get the pretty year ones like he wanted to

and today, went out wiv my darl dearest, she accompany me to buy my new pair of shoes
haven work for so long and i didn reali have the money
my mom gave me 40 bucks but then i bought a star wars comic, cldnt resist it i gues
so naz bought the shoe for me, THANX DEAR!!
pssst, its gona be half a year soon....

sadly no pic to put up today, we haven take pics in a long time eh?
soon soon okie?

loves her, nitez you all!!!

2007-12-26T23:11:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! HO HO HO!!

there was a christmas party for retail the other day
i kinda find it funny, the events
i did enjoy the food thou, ate like no one's business
it was at amis or smthin like that, a restraunt at sentosa
well u know what they say, if its free, its nice!!

oh and the skit, man that was whack!
we were singing jingle bells jingle bells in mandarin
and it came out ting ting tang ting ting tang smthin smthin yadayada

oh and i saw mikey, man that guy long time hadnt chat wiv him

oh and abt the exchange of gifts, i rather not talk abt it

at chinatown mac

after work and before the party, i am sleeping way at the back there

nice?

me and my shop IC kenji ong or the emperor

IOS PEOPLE getting kinda big eh the grp, infact it was the biggest among all the outlets

me, mikey and az

merry xmas!

2007-12-18T00:24:00.000+08:00

greetings all!

firstly, like to wish my dearest Happy 5 Months!!
been lots of ups and downs
but yeah loving you is more then worth it

hurhurhur, SLOW, lol jz kiddin ya (*_*)lol

well lemme see
life has been great, too much to blog as it is, i guess
went to MOS the other week, it was the Milkshake event @MOS
i gues it was in response to the ZoukOut at Siloso
went with paul, gabe, meng, gabes gf, his frens and xumeng, mich and fish
kinda boring i gues
clubbbing aint my thing i gues,

then the other day went out wiv my cousins
yup that was surprising aint it
considering how we meet like oni once a year
met up with my bro and the 5th oldest, haris at bugis
then came the oldest cousin, remy and the 6th oldest halim along the main road
cuz the big guy was driving, sheesh, when isit my turn, well partly cuz i am dead broke
anyways, had a great day with the boys, reali, considering how fast we all growing older and all

the other day went out wiv the missus
was at IMM, waiting for the bus at the bus stop
i was leaning against a pillar, and there was the missus, jz leaning on me sideways
the i was jz staring into blank space, mind was reali friggin blank,
then skali HOI!! and a tap on my shoulder
my heart skipped a beat, and my blood froze for a splitsecond
i turned around and there she was
my AUNTIE!!!!
omfg, i am so fuckin dead, considerin hari raya aidiladha coming jz 3 more days
haiz
hope nothing wld be reveal....

lots of things on my mind today, lots of shit la
despite all that, the missus still there for me
sorie if i was being hard, but reali dear, head is aching for me, haix

ciaozz all!

2007-12-01T23:29:00.000+08:00

GREETING FROM YOURS TRULY....

hey guys, sorie my long absence
not that i dont have much to blog, i tink i have too much too blog!!!!
lol

ok lemme see, other then the burdens of projects which ended last week, i have recently taken time off to spent time wiv my frens this week.

- there was the east coast fishing trip
- went to sentosa with my gf
- airport T3 open house
- chilled with erwin at paradiz and expo SITEX fair
- HARRYS ON FRIDAY!!!
- working at HORT PARK

but gudd times must come to an end soon, back to project next week, haizzzz

anyways
the east coast thing was whacked!!!
paul was supposedly in mawai for 3 days
instead one day was spent at genes place and the other at east coast camping
i went to early or so smone said
met em at genes place at depot road
then went to have lunch first, played pool, and went to queens to get my new shoes
yeap a new pair of adidas to replace the pair of adidas i lost
then on to east coast, we cycled arnd lookin for a place
cycled until my thighs cramp sial
while cycling and relaxing gene saw this 2 chicks he so wanted to know
well oni one of em la, me tinks they werent all that bad
then paul blanja us makan
oh the bike oso he blanja whole night smore
so not bad la, had fun.
blood hell i was the test dummy for the hammock and twice i fell
arse pain sia, and that paul better, dont know how to pitch tent tsk tsk tsk
next day took cab back and went home to snore my head off a while bfore meeting my girl

the other day went to sentosa wiv my gf
and it started raining so we were under a shelter
and we caught sight of this

nice ar??? wonder what happened hmmmm

the class went to T3 the other time to see the landscaping done indoors at the terminal
kinda tiring walking arnd, but certain things did caught my attention!!
like the FIFA outlet. wonder what it is selling there
and for the first time in my life, i took the skytrain or smthin
nvr realy lepak much at airport,so ya
and oso didn know there were food courts sia
ate there, one of the stalls say rex chicken rice, but i tink it was crap eyach!!

me, paul and mich

grp pic!!!

wonder what huingee is doin????

immigration

the FIFA outlet

our beloved HARRYS

me taking a nap on the conveyor belt

skylight

conveyor belt

green wall

my girl

AWWWWWW
ok ok sorie sis and oso sorie paul, i jz cant help it, coincidental pic
theres nothing between em ar

went to SITEX with erwin the other day
walk around
boring sialll nothing much other then tech stuff
i dont uds much anywayz
there were chicks galore too, erwin cant help himself
lol
we wanted to go changi village after that, but didn noe what bus from expo
so we jz headed to paradiz for a round of pool
and this smart alec, told me that no need change at tanah merah
luckily i was born smarter then he was
lol
eh btw, i won u ar 5-2 at pool
sucka
oh btw he's finnaly legal age HAHAHAHAH

and friday was great
half the class left sm talk by sm zen master at page one
and we headed off to harrys for sm drinks
well i didn drink as always
there was me,gabe seah, paul, hq,hn,jeff,mich,meiyu,winnie,xumeng and frens of frens oso there
well according to my fren danny, a waiter at harrys, one of the waiters wanted to know xumeng
i didn dare to anyhow giv number sia
lol
everyone had a gudd time
we played 7-up la, 5-10 lol
i kinda suck at these number games
if i was a driker, i tink i lose like hell!!
oh btw CONGRATS PAUL FOR U KNOW WHAT
oops

oh yeah workin at hort park now, more updates and pics soon
in the mean time jz sm story abt working there
i was earliest althou i woke up late
have to consider that i leave the nearest lol
met mich and linen there
when i called hn she didn say hie u know! she jz screamed OH SHIT!!
lol
so help clear sm rubble from the site
waited for the arrival of sm timber
then walked arnd looking at other designs, cuz our structure not finished welding yet
then we went to find plants!!!
tat was fun
u know, there is an NParks nursery in hyderabad!!
all my life i leave near there, and i didn know abt the place
gosh
had fun riding the buggy arnd looking at plants as we went along
we ride thru a mist and that was nice!! gosh i loved it
the experience of working with landscapers on site
i even tried to ask the botanist if NParks is hiring
lol
then we had lunch? or dinner? duno wiv hq who we met up later at vivo
me, hn, jeff, linen and hq ate at banquet
we went to vivo courtesy of mdm zai
she ask me where to drop off and i showed her where u know
and she can smore blame me for misdirection!!! walao!!
even jeff heard me givin directions thanx jeff!!

ok last but not least, my cutest baby cuzzin paid a visit the other day
oooh i love babies
enjoy his cuteness!!!

awwwww

wish i cld spent more time wiv him

cheers ya all!! nitezzz

2007-11-11T21:34:00.000+08:00

WHAT THE F***

ok my blog is now, soooo boring, or so someone said...
lol
ok anywayz, the only thing so far which is doin great is

JALAN RAYA

wiv me cuzzin and her frens

MY GIRLFRIEND!

andddd

GOIN OUT WIV ME MATES, PAUL WINNIE AND GABE T FOR SHEESHA!!

ok first these pics which i wana put up after so long, and there are still missing ones....
thanx cuzz and her fren nad for the pic....

at serangoon....the place where alot of indians are, and which her freind cant accept....lol...

the guys....

the guys, plus my cuzzin...

FUCKIN FUN! i like these people...they're nice....

wiv my girlfriend i went to eat cold rock i/cream!!
and i gota admit it (sorie haagen daz) i love it!!
esp the gummy bear wiv the i/cream.
actuali that one was my gf, but i cldnt finish mine cuz i was so fulll, so i ate her sorbet wiv
the gummy bears!! yummy!!

i love i/cream....

her gobbling up the i/cream!

went sheesha, wiv the mates, no pics for that thou saded.

was late, sorie gabe! his gf was there too
winnie, first tiime lepak wiv her, ahahaha fun! but she had to cabot go to MOS
me and paul, wearing so damned bleddy slekeh, decided against followin her in
i tell ya, havoc sia clarke quay, basket, full of ppl sia.
eye candy galore! hot hot hot
in the end we ended up eatin at macdonald and then walking home, taking us FIT and STRONG
guys two whole hours to reach home. lol

well this satday lepaking wiv em agn, cant wait!

wanna thank hui ngee oso for the com! sorie gave u a heart attack ya!
nice place btw, but bad directions from u! humph!
fyi, i tink i can never live in CCK!! its so confusing!

kkkz gtg nitez ya all!!

lovessssss

2007-10-29T00:50:00.000+08:00

LIFE

OKKKK LIFE
i love my life now
my dearest always tells me theres a gudd reason why smthing bad happens
and she's always making me feel like things will always be better
she is reali reali reali GREAT!!

hokaizz lemme see what i have been doin....

YES!! interim review went as per normal, well not normal normal
but ya it went great!! i didn get scolding or anythin, infact, i tink half my plans
for the new site has been given the green light!! mahahaha am sooooo happie

ok ok so here are the finalise plans:

1-the walk thru flower garden
2-the welcoming water feature
3-the lap pool area

but sadly the reviews on my roof top garden werent so hot, infact it was so cold
i tot my it was snowing
haixxxx, reason given was bcz it wasnt relaxing enuf.
gotta tink of smthin soon cuz lay out plan muz be finalise by next week......

NIGHT SAFARI

after the review, i was so laxing i dono what else i should do
first i went to had dinner wiv winnie and hui ngee, MY 2 NEW SISTERS
then went back to studio, went 2nd lunch wiv paul, gabe t and gabe s, ken, sonny they all
then after that was damned bored in class
got no bleddy idea wat to do
sooooo me, gabe t, and paul decided to cabot.
they accompanied me to beach road, makan!!
i wanted to makan the mi kuah!!! SPICY LIAO!!!
after being full we walk arnd masjid sultan there, poking our heads here and there
and chilled at a restraunt

we were havin second tots abt goin to night safari, cuz we werent sure who was goin
then HQ told me she and the girls were goin, so we went! mahahahaha
it was the begining of a crazy journey
we took 960 from bugis
we started to discuzz loudly abt how to get to mandai
gabe was sure that the bus went there
then there were 2 chinese aunties and an indian uncle who helpfully pointed out where to go

auntie no.1: i tink ar, these bus dont go mandai, cuz it goes all the way to bkt panjang

auntie no.2:u shld drop off at ten mile junction take another bus from there

uncle: this bus dont go mandai, u muz take another bus

and soooo we drop off at smwhere and instead we took a cab
(btw 960 does go to mandai, so dont listen to aunties and uncles, gabe was sooo angry la!)

ENTRANCE

THE GUYS WHO WENT

JALAN RAYA WIV MY GIRLFRIEND

went jalan raya wiv the missus and one thing i learn from these experience?
i cant eat as much as i tink i cld

here are sm pics, courtesy from my girls blog and her fren ain

AT NAD'S PLACE DAMN NEAR MY CUZZINS PLACE

AT HAFIZ'S PLACE

AT SYAZRULS(pardon me if error in spelling) PLACE

AT AIN'S PLACE EVEN NEARER TO MY CUZZINS PLACE
I LOVE THE GIRL TO MY LEFT, WE ARE WEARIN THE SAME COLOR!!

WONDER WHAT I AM DOIN WIV THAT FACE

AT MDM SITI'S PLACE
had a nice chat wiv her, kinda miss her teaching us, still rmbmr hitching a ride in her car
lol!

lepak wiv paul the other day
asked him to play pool after work, cuz i was damned bored
GOD DAMN IT, WHY THE FAG I SUCK AT POOL!! ARGGHHHH!!
gotta improve on it haixxxx
then we went to lepak at the kedai kopi then we decided to walk back
smhow one way or another, we ended up walking up mount faber
and i brought him to jewel box
infact i showed him half of mount faber, cuz i dont tink he realli knows the place
we even disturbed a couple who were 'busy' if u know what i mean
he was kinda shock there was a merlion there

oh btw, its a nice place to bring ur girlfriend
theres a light display up there for now, they've decorated the telecom structure there
trust me, ur girl will love it

work in sentosa the other day, i was sent from one place to another la
AND IT WAS MY FIRST DAY IN 3 WEEKS!!
crazy
first i was sent to QM went there for an hour, and as always i enjoy readin there
then i was sent to OSCAR i cant believe i was in the shop alone for most of the time
i hate being alone, cuz i mite jz cock smthin up
but i was asked to take a pic wiv a girl and i relented, well it was for a school project so ya, DONT WORRY DEAR!!
then i was sent back to IOS, dear old IOS, how much i missed it
and so thats abt it! life is per normal now

enjoy elearning week ya!!
nitez ya all!!

2007-10-23T20:54:00.000+08:00

WE WERE ALL TWIXED

GREETINGS ALL!!!

OH MY GOD!! so so so sorieeeeee

been ages since i updated my darned bloggggg
haizzzzzz
ok so what have i been doing these past few weeks???

hmmm if i am not at school ar, i would be.....

-bz doin project at home
-bz doin project at paul's place
-going for a kickabout at the field
-doing illegal business
-and today went to chill wiv the class ppl at gelare citylink

tmw jalan2 raya wiv my dearest, cheer up ok!!

love ya!

hopefully a better days ahead.

2007-10-12T10:15:00.000+08:00

AIDILFITRI

hey everyone,

i sure miss all of you, sorie haven updated in the longest of times,
but in the spirit of this upcoming festivities, i have even changed my blog song to suit the
feelings of those around me, especially those who are really looking forward to lebaran

firstly, i wana wish( okay this is gona be done in malay, cuz its sounds better)

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin,
Jika ade salah silap atau terkasar bahasa, harap dimaafkan,
dan
Agar kesemue makan minum dihalalkan

wanna dedicate this to my,
-family, mum dad and bro
-to the missus(first raya together)
- alee, mij(complaining abt how nvr got the chance go bazaar lol) and syaz.
-my sentosa buddy AZ(miss ya girl, how are u even doin??) and mike(hope ur fasting is goin strong)
-erwin and k, lets play soccer now that fastings over
-paul(more harry's ar)
and everyone who knows me la ar.....

hokaizzz now lemme see what i have been doin this past few days

hmmmmm

monday given ICE
tues submission of interim and presentation of GEMS
wed pre roleplay in class
thurs presentation and supposedly submission of ICE for CAD
fri submission of another ICE(but haven done yet la ar, lazyyyyy)

okaiz, lemme seeeeee
wed had roleplaying, fuckin funnie shit la
i duno y i kena sabo to join in
i was sittin down there quiet and all, not findin trouble
then skali HQ, meng, alee, winnie all saboed me to be in the roleplay, when they
themselves oredie kena, wth?!
i was the president of the Dance Club(LOL) and we talked crap thru out the
meeting
jackass

then wed night was my night spend talking to HQ abt our much loved GREYS A
crazy stuff, then skali paul asked me go down, lepak
so went down half way thru the show and lepak wiv him and listening to HQ screamin on the fone
about wat was happening on tv!
hahahz
affter call ended, me and paul jz lepak until 3 in the morning drinking....
SPRITE LA! what were u tinking???

thurs dinner wiv the missus at bugis, last break fast together since ramadan coming to a close
thank god for that! cuz i sure miss LUNCHES
hahahaz
and agn i lepak at paul's place until 3 in the mornin
makan ice cream, talk to alee conference, then watch movies(mother tot we were watching porn)

okaiz today, so far the plan is....
-pick up the package from yam after school
-meet erwin, cuz that bro of mine emoing
-go home and makan rendang!!!

yupyup gudd day and great weekend ahead

2007-10-04T01:03:00.000+08:00

once again....

....lies being pushed to my face, and i dont have the slightest chance to explain.

it was all exageratted beyond proportions....
....its like, lame must i say? well i'll blog more abt it, for now, i jz wanna calm down and tink.

thanx to my cuzin, alee and my dearest girlfriend, naz....

....both u ladies made me sane in my moment of weakness.

2007-10-02T13:13:00.000+08:00

SICK OF THINGS

ok so i am sick of things, really, but what can i do right?
i cant jz demand a change of things at the snap of my fingers
i am not god.

well god, why am i not even getting a fair share of things anywayz,
wait in the first place, i have always ask so much when i giv so little...
thats the reason aint it?

ahhh forget about it, useless to be ranting anywayz, god dont read blogs

LOST MY FUCKING THUMBDRIVE!!

cant believe where in the hell did i lose it anywayz?
all day long i jz sat in that stupid class, not movin my damned fucking ass and still i lose it
what the fuck is wrong wiv me....

well project, so far, ok la, despite my misgivings about it
life is reali crapped up i gues wiv school,
in other words I HATE IT!!

hmmmmm what other thing??

oh one thing gudd abt school this week!
i finally saw QIU in school!
ok maebe not school, it was at the MRT station, but who cares, still counts.
we were jz talking abot it a day before i tink that how come we nvr bumped into each other
after so long in SP
lol, well fren, finally we bumped! and all we had to do was talk about it!!

lol

well 12 more days to fasting, reali fast seyyyy
well if theres one thing i miss abt the fasting month is....

a) the test of one's will of mind over matter called fasting

b)the nights i spent praying terawih

c)waking up early to sahur and goin home early to buke

OR

d)THE BAZAAR, THE FOOD, KUEH2, LEPAK EVERYNIGHT.

ok well as u can see, as it is definately very hard to decide right??
well u fig it out for urself.....

today had dinner wiv the missus at holland v

gosh i miss that place

we first debated where to eat then we had our desserts at haagen daz

lol, i cant help but take notice how much i miss the shop haizz ohz and of cuz, i love my girl!! hope u had a great evenin dear!!!

IN THE HEADLINES.....

SOCCER NEWS: THE CHAMPIONS LEAGUE

MAN UNITED vs ROMA

ok i noe its gona be hard to realise the similiar scoreline we achieved last season
so we're gona have to face facts this time round,
with serious injuries in the Red Devils line ups this time round, and also
featuring Totti this time round, it will definately be a tougher challenge for the team from
manchester....

God, a repeat of this please......

Form guide: Roma won their opening Group F match against Dynamo Kyiv 2-0, with goals from Francesco Totti and Simone Perrotta. However, Luciano Spalletti's team arrive in Manchester on the back of a 4-1 loss to Inter Milan, which leaves them fourth in Serie A. Meanwhile, United's march up the Barclays Premier League table continued with a 1-0 win against Birmingham on Saturday. Cristiano Ronaldo scored the winner, just as he did on Matchday 1 at Sporting Lisbon.

Ins and outs: The Italians have picked up a number of injuries in recent weeks, with Marco Cassetti (thigh), Francesco Totti (thigh) and Alberto Aquilani (ankle) the most high-profile. Totti and Aquilani should be available on Tuesday, but Cassetti has been ruled out for a month. Nemanja Vidic and Wes Brown are doubtful for United, while goalkeeper Edwin van der Sar (toe) will be replaced by Tomasz Kuszczak.

Star men: European Golden Shoe winner Francesco Totti has started strongly once again, scoring four goals in his last five league appearances. Meanwhile, Michael Carrick will be hoping for a similar performance to the one he produced in April's 7-1 demolition.

Odds: 6/1 Ronaldo scoring first goal of the night

WORLD EVENTS

Baby Born at 171 lbs

No wonder not-so-little Nadia Barabanova is screaming the place down.
Tipping the scales at 17.1lb, the newborn tot is bound to be hungry. Especially as mum Tatyana's diet during the pregnancy consisted of potatoes, noodles, potatoes, tomatoes ... and potatoes.
Tatyana, 43, said after her caesarean in the Altai region of Siberia last week: "We don't have the money for special foods, so I just ate everything basic."
But with Nadia joining her 11 other kids - all of whom arrived at 11lb plus - at least Tatyana's helping to stem Russia's population decline. In a BIG weigh..

Puss In Da Hood

Yo! This cat looks every inch the menacing hoodie with an ugly mug for good measure.
In fact the rare hairless sphynx variety is one of the gentlest and most intelligent of breeds.
But lack of fur means they do feel the cold, hence the hood.
His owner was exhibiting him at a weekend cat show in the Almaty region of Kazakhstan.

The country is the home of Borat but this resident's style owes more to another Sacha Baron Cohen creation - Ali G

STAR WARS COMICS

2007-10-01T12:55:00.000+08:00

BLOG IN CLASS

am bored right now
am in class and doin nothing as of now
seriously, suddenly i feel so darn lazy, sleepy and all i am looking forward to
is breaking fast wiv the missus

haiz, wonder what the hell is wrong with me

hmmm ok lets summarise the weekend

SULAIMAN ON STAGE!!

my old buddy, SULAIMAN, a friend i have know almost more than half my life,
has graced the stage!!!
it was a gudd performance all in all, and i was proud to have been there to support him,
along wiv other brothers to do so.
after that, we went for our own post party at lau pa sat, go i miss that place
had out share of food, and watched the man united vs bmingham match
enjoyed the whole shit wiv the fellas, then the party had to end i gues, all headed home

hmmm what else am i gona talk about,

hmmmmm.......

STAR WARS

i have recently read the second part of the dark empire series, considering i havent really
been catching up since abt the stories in the ABY(After Battle of Yavin) years.
sadly eversince the clone wars series came out, and the BBY(Before Battle of Yavin) years line
of comics came out, i have been readin about the pre-galactic war eras.
so now i am goin back to the original roots of star wars, which is the ABY eras, which i love more
then clone war years, i have gone back to readin abt the adventures of...

Luke Skywalker and The Rebel Alliance!!

READ LIKE 3 YEARS AGO??

JUST READ

HAVENT READ!!!

PREMIER LEAGUE RESULTS

GOALLLLLLL!!

a one-nil win over birmingham, in all honesty, it was a ragged match marred by several tackles
poor performances by the midfield i believe
and the strikers were out of sorts, terribly out of sorts in my opinion.
rooney had no chance to go thru the back four, along wiv tevez
but the opening and eventually winning goal by cristiano ronaldo,
was a classical finish, very clinical and skillfully taken and very strong challenge of the ball
against the defender led to the goal sheer class.

the new, and the old, both a class of their own

BECKS RUSH HOME TO DAD

well not because he feeling the blues of being away from gudd old england
but by the news of his pops havin a heart attack,

well becks, the player who scored that wonderful goal from the byline
back in '94 against wimbledon is really succesful both on and off the field
smthin to admire, and he is in the line of legends who donned the number 7 jersey of Man Utd
the very number that i am wearin in class today on my jersey

well he is oredie suffering in LA playing for a team i bet Tampiness Rovers FC have a chance
beating now wiv the news of his pops suffering a heart attack, lets hope he doesnt quit soccer
for gudd, not just yet....

but the moral of the story here is not about his family, his fame, his fortune or even abt his
wife...

its all about..... THE BENTLEY!!!

I LOVE THE BLACK BENTLEY HE IS DRIVING!! HAHAHA!

WORLD NEWS

if last week i covered the riots in myanmar, today a more grimmer news i wld like to cover
not bcz of its funnny side or what, but bcz of the harsh reality i am looking upon, that while
here i am sittin down in an air con studio doin nothin but complaining about life, and how school
life sucks, and looking forward for NS and doin all the things i have alwaysn wanted to do
concerning military and stuff, and how i wld shoot at an enemy when the need arises,
the harsh fact is that when push comes to shove, and there u are staring at ur enemy,
right in his eyes, can u bear to kill another human being?

THE HARSH FACT

a movie about a similiar massacre of peacekeepers in mogadishu

a map of region

NAIROBI, Kenya, Sept. 30 — Hundreds of Darfurian rebels overran an African Union peacekeeping base in the central Darfur region of Sudan in a surprise raid over the weekend, killing at least 10 soldiers, possibly kidnapping dozens more and seizing supplies that included heavy weapons, African Union officials said Sunday.

The raid, which began late Saturday and appeared to be highly organized, was the deadliest and boldest attack on African Union peacekeepers since they arrived in Darfur three years ago.
It came just as the United Nations has been trying to persuade member countries to commit troops and support to a greatly expanded Darfur peacekeeping force. Aid officials now fear that some of those countries may have second thoughts about participating.

According to Noureddine Mezni, an African Union spokesman, the rebels swarmed the base just after sunset with 30 heavily armed trucks, surprising the guards and overwhelming the peacekeepers with a barrage of machine-gun fire.
“We tried to defend ourselves but we were completely outnumbered,” Mr. Mezni said. “Our camp was totally destroyed and they looted everything: guns, trucks, even an armored personnel carrier.”
Mr. Mezni said the rebels, whose precise affiliation was unclear as of late Sunday, came at the camp from every direction in what he called a “deliberate and sustained attack.”
After the initial assault, they came back a second time to plunder, African Union officials said...

By JEFFREY GETTLEMAN
Published: October 1, 2007

2007-09-28T21:56:00.000+08:00

I WONT DRINK

nope, not as in drinking water
i mean drinking beer, alcohol, liquor etc.
and i hav proven that i can withstand the temptations, not one, but 2 DEVILS

ok recently
went to a Harry's wiv paul(SP Buddy) and subhan(Pri School buddy)
well i was in no mood to do project la actually, and paul was the same as well
dono y la, so we decided to go to Harry's and called sub along

since i dont drink, i got no idea why paul tinks i drink ar
so firstly, he bought a jug of tiger and four mugs,
then i say i wont drink mah, then he ordered for me 'coke'
and still i wont drink, cuz i brought it close to my nose, and of cuz, i cld smell the alcohol
hah!
its bourbon coke, heng ar never drink, so at the end of it all, i jz drank plain ice water
and jz ate the peanuts

but got the cute waitress thou, paul liked her i tink
sub says smthin abt him and short hair girls
after that we all met faizal, and lepak for awhile before goin back
as always sub bought sweets, to hide the stench of alcohol on him

school?
boring
i was first in class for 3 days, late for 15 mins for wed
sianz
well maebe now i got a fren to go school wiv, mr paul can meet up wiv me, but thing is,
i dono if we gona be late for class not, he goes out soo late, to me la
hahahz, can oso meet zal maebe, he RP but ya, half way he gets off at redhill ar

ok this is smthin that caught my eye

ITS THE WORST CASE OF BIKE THEFTS IN SPORE(or in my area at least)

one thing to steal one wheel
even two wheels is considered ok
or maebe steal jz the handle bar and leave the wheels
or the headlights? i've heard of that goin missin
or steal the frame and front/back wheel, leavin the part which is chained behind
BUT TO STEAL ALL OF IT??? AND JZ LEAVE THE FRAME BEHIND???
haiz, what is happenin....
tsk pathetic

RIOTS IN MYANMAR

gosh, i cant believe they wld shoot point blank at a man who 'shoots' wiv a camera
this is jz too much for me
the rioters are monks and the common ppl, he isnt even a local, he's a jap smore
smore, why shoot at monks?? they believe in peace right? so they wont resort to violence
crazy jz crazy

well maebe, i cld be wrong lets take a look at this in an alternate world....

*MONKS MARCHING*

"WE WANT FOOD, CHEAPER OIL PRICES, AND OUR INTERNET CONNECTION!!!"

DISPERSE OR WE ARE OPENING FIRE!!!

"YOU DISPERSE LA!!! SHOOT US AND I AM GONA WHACK YA WITH THIS HOLY THINGY IN MY HAND!!"

*whispers* eh u tink he is serious abt that holy thingy??

"CHARGE!!!!!!!!!!!!"

"SHIT!! TINK ITS ABOUT TIME WE BAIL! RETREAT!!!"

ok ok

i'm jz kiddin, hope no one else gets killed and things get settled peacefully la, democracy rules!!

hahahaz, well time to turn in

gtg ya all, nitez!!

2007-09-25T09:44:00.000+08:00

START OF SCHOOL(AGAIN)

hey there,

sorie havent blogged for the longest of times

and as always i got alot to blog about today to cover about

hokaiz, sadly

my school term has began again

after 4 weeks of non stop fun in the sun(well in a museum actually)

life is now back on track as a student

yeah thats right

life as a student

okaiz most recently, i break fast with the missus and her frens at geylang

it was to be a first ramadan spent together among her and her frens, and wiv me

and the twist to it all was, the girls who were attached wld be bringing along their bfs

and oni 2 bfs were not familiar wiv the grp, and one of em was me.

i was actualli not sure what am i gona do, or how am i gona have to present myself in front of em
but as the day, or evening wore on, i must say it went fine, cuz i didn actualli had such a bad time

so ya, it was gona be a long night

BAZAAR

its like the first time in a long time i went to the bazaar geylang

after missing like the past 4 years i guess

OLD

i cant believe i was called OLD!

haiz, i noe la, i am older then a year, but sial la, not OLD as in OLD OLD

well u see, there went a conversation wiv the bf of one of her frens

and i believe he asked me if i was schooling or working

HIM:eh kao ni, skola mane? atao da keje?

ME: oh samer skola, same course infact, cume senior diorang je, abeh kao, keje ato skola?

HIM: skola, O***** **** Sec

ME:oh skola? abeh tanye pasal keje, ingat kan kao da keje ke pe

HIM: oh takde, u seem to be older, jadi ingat kan da keje

ME (in my head): WHAT???

IS THERE WRINKLES ON MY DARN FACE?!

waaaaah kena that kinda of opinion, i was kinda surprised

do i look that old???

come on! all of us there are like teens!! not adults

ME(replying back):abeh kao? sekolah ape? ITE?

ok that was rude, but sorie, hahahz, jz like to you know shoot back maebe?

ok i am being a bad guy here, so thats where that convo ended

had another chat, when both our missus suddnly scoot away

i was laughing my head off watching suhaimi and khairudin doin their thing

and as i turned around, i noticed it was jz me and him, (where were the girls??)

it was kinda awkard, silence between two fellas are always awkward

so we ended up talking agn

well this fella aint that bad at the end of the day

as i hav always said, u can talk to me, just treat me wiv the same respect u expect be given back to you as well.

ok back to the bazaar, omg, lots of food,

kebab, putu piring, kueh pulah pinang, air katira, etc etc etc

i was drooling all over la,

i bought 5 dollars worth of putu piring for the family(my family i mean)

but sad thing was, ppl really think i look old, or that day i look old or smthin

haiz

one guy asked me if i wanna buy curtain and to come into his shop in the bazaar to have a look

wth!!!! do i look like i own a home?? i am still living wiv my parents for heavens sake!!

haizzzz

all in all i was looking forward to goin back there thou

i love this girl

GEYLANG WIV THE BROS

ok yesterday went to geylang wiv erwin and khair

wanted to jalan2 and cari makan wiv em

tot can break fast together, but alas, khair the gudd bf, has to accompany his girl

ok ok, he is a gudd bf, no seriously he is

lol

so me and erwin went to break fast at vivo(oni me not him, he doesnt fast)

and we witness smthin that totally made our day, eh erwin? hehehe

and from there we went to geylang

as we reach there first, we were discussing,

where we wana go and what we wanna do first,

and u noe what our brainwave was?? go look for that lorong we had passed by a couple of months back.

yes lorong, i am sure u all get what i mean

he wanted to take an excursion of the red light district of singapore, well i gues he got me curious as well.

well in the end, we ended up too tired walking so we jz bought drinks and waited for khair

and the monkey was late, as usual....

while waiting for him, we met baihakki khaizan, the spore national team defender, he is damned tall la

and so we decided to prank khair when he arrived

PRANK no.1: we met baihakki who was being interviewd, talk to him, and we were interviewd on tv as well saying stupid things

PRANK no.2: we were late(actualli our late was still a whole half hour earlier then he was) because the MRT punctured its wheels

he fell for both!! omg can u believe it??? IDIOT!! but he goes on to say he noe la actualli.

wth.

and so we jz wondered thru the streets at nite and we came to a point, where khair's hunger and

erwin's needs had to be met.

khair is hungry, erwin was curious abt the lorongs

so i came up wiv a solution

ME: erwin, u tmw morn oso can go fuck thos prostitutes if u want to, but khair tmw morn cannot eat, cause we start fasting agn. so now, we go find food, girls for u later can.

and that was the end of his quest for the lorongs

I AM GONA MISS SENTOSA!!

ok now that school has started, i am soooo gona miss work

ok i noe, its weird of me to say that i am gona miss work, after all i hav always complained abt it

but lately i really enjoy it!!

my IC has been really nice to me thus far, weird, cuz i used to feel like she always chidded me

i look forward to goin cashering, so i can roam arnd the island, and still be back within an hour

also, now i got my POS id!! hahahz, can do casher, been waiting for it for soo long

i am gona miss my gudd pals sooo much, hahahz

me, mike and az

sm other things i caught in the news i wanna talk about

HOLLYWOOD GOSSIPS

owen tried to kill himself

police report regarding the matter look at the blanked out line

owen wilson, the actor for Behind Enemy Lines, Shanghai Noon and Knights tried to kill
himself. not sure because of what, but heard he was in a depression period. yup thats right.
i am pretty sure the end of his relationship wiv kate hudson had to do smthin wiv it. its jz a gut feeling.
anywayz, goes to show he is jz human like all of us and he is vulnerable to feelings as well.
but weird thing is, he is FAMOUS, THE LOOKS, THE MONEY, THE FAME, THE JOB,
cmon dude, i am sure u have a far better lifes, the us normal jocks, except for the fact u got
dumped or smthin, look on the bright side of life.

FOOTBALL NEWS

Carlos Tevez has finally broken his duck in the first encounter of this season with chealsea.
final score was a tantalizing 2-0 win over the blues, who then when on to suffer monday blues.
pardon the pun
he looks like the hulk or smthin seriously, playin soccer like he is goin to war, no fear at all.
i wont wanna be in the face of his attacks!
jz look at this pic theres another from the opposite angle, but i cldnt find it online
so we'll jz make use of this
the goalie is seen tryin to punch the ball away onli for tevez to come flying in wiv his head first
to score.
HEAD against FISTS
crazy

i swear petr chec cld have peed in his pants when tevez came flying in wiv that head of his
no wonder he cldnt parry the ball away in time

well thats all folks, gotta go now, ciaoz.

2007-09-16T21:55:00.000+08:00

I HATE SCHOOL

I CANT WAIT FOR MY PAY

I WANNA BUY A SHOE AND A BAG

I NEED A SHOPPING PARTNER NOW!!!!!

2007-09-12T15:37:00.000+08:00

STUCK IN A STOREROOM

greetings to all!

today is very fun
cause i am slacking thru out the day
dono y
but ya fun
hahahahahaz

come work at 1030 nice nice, not too late, not too early
then change oredie start do this abit do that abit
then auntie mabel came to talk to me,
hahahahz talk for like half an hour like that
nothin to do sia me
then wen on to do sm stuff

later help untangle the stupid merlion shit
another half an hour gone
then talk to auntie agn

then nothin to do, i decided to fill up the water fountain agn
sial la, i had enuf of dela coming in to ask me why the fountain so lil water
do i look like a friggin plumber??
so today, i am gona outsmart her, fill it up first! HAH HOW ABOUT THAT AH??

then around 1215 like dat
wen to do cashering
my first time but ok la
i kaysiao2 like i noe how to do, actuali i noe la, but long time never do forget ma
smore get to walk arnd sentosa instead of stuck in this museum
and so went to oscar and met namialus, my sp dude
then procedeed on to ficus to go offfice

waaah there now got nice new building come up
used to be the tram over station overhead
but now gone oredie so
this new thing come up
nice lei, wanna take pic next time

walk around office and talked to the office ppl
and our VM ask me if i am goin to beach, so i said ya(actually no la)
so i can walk around by the beach
and visit jasmine at palawan!! hahahaz wanna see how she adapting

I WANNA GO BEACH SIA!!! ARGHHHHHHHH SIANZED
NO ONE AT BEACH SMORE TODAY, SIAL LA SMORE THE SUN SO WARM AND THE BREEZE SO COOL

WALANEH

ARGGHHHHH SADED

drop off my packages
some vm stuff at palawan, then went to oscar give em their stuff and cash
then went back to my homebase at IOS

haiz went back do sm things
and still i am bored, cuz now havnin break
so later goin back to work
so anythin please call me ok
need sm sleep nw

have a great day ya'all ciaoz

2007-09-11T22:45:00.000+08:00

LIFE IS A BORE

hmmm other then work and soccer
this holiday month is definately is a fuck up one
i hav to say

ITS A FUCKING BORE

work is one thing la, fun wiv all thos i enjoy wiv
but it gets reali reali fuck up wiv tourists who tinks we are humans wiv no feelings
and tourists who ar assholessss
i dont wanna be a jerk or anything la ar, not being a racist either, but i swear its a common shared feeling among the staff i work wiv
but seriously, i am fed up wiv indian tourists
sorry but i am not being racist or anything here, i jz wanna u noe talk abt it.

they are rude, they walk around like they own the damned freaking shop
treat us like we are nothing wiv no feelings, and i swear if i dont calm down i am gonna punch
one in the near future.
and recently, i found out there are perverts among them as well
i was about ready to jump him if he had done more then what he did

firstly, they come into the shop and the first thing they see, they wld ask

"got scheme(discount)?"

and when they see the merlion figurines
BUY FOUR GET ONE FREE AT 5.90 EACH
they would smhow turn idiots, and forget to read the word EACH

"this one buy four? 5.90 can? one free right?"......

fucking hell, are u crazy??? we sell the merlions for like what? one for 1.20??
hello we are not fucking .99 cent shop, we are a freaking resort island selling expensive stuff
wanna cheap stuff??? go mustafa center or smthin!!
i noe i noe, some of the things are of poor quality, even i hav to agree wiv that, but cmon!!
DONT FUCKING BARGAIN WITH ME CAN?? WE HAV PRICE TAGS FOR A REASON MORON!!
ITS NOT FOR BARGAINING
and anything wiv that sign, they wld ask silly things

and at the cashier counter, its like we are fighting a one man war there
i had to join meili in the "battle"
they dont know the concept of queing up. they come in from all corners
if our counter was a circle, tink there wld be hands all over
i had to sternly said PLEASE QUEUE UP BEHIND THIS MAN
and they can still ask for free gifts

oh ya, lets not get to that, cuz they asked for better free gifts.
FUCKING CRAZY the thing is free, still want better free gifts
smore got one complain, are u being racist? cuz he got a free gift he didn like and the ang moh
got smthin better.
haiz, u get what u are given la. theres a reason why the marbles are of diff colors, they
giv diff gifts, aiyooooo

and the worst is what i saw wiv my own eyes from behind the counter area
a young man grabbed one of the staff at my outlet, by her arm, and whispered smthin in her ear
i could see her discomfortness and she was leaning away from him
i wanted to go and ask him if things were ok, but i jz remain rooted on the spot, to see what wld happen. he let go and walked away.
when she came to the counter, i asked her, if things were ok
and i found out tat he asked her

"can i kiss you?".... WHAT THE FUCK? do we look like a freaking whore house??

u need sm loving? go to the various red light districts in spore, dont meddle here

ok i dont wanna rant anymore la, sian oredie, they wont change anywayz, so like
useless to talk abt it.

soccer? i dont find joy anythin much other then scoring
but its fun that we are meeting up again, guys of intake 02
and for seoul garden the other day
and the other day played wiv paul and the other guys, shared the goal scoring duties wiv ende
i loved the volley i did and also the shot thru the goalie legs.
long time since i played against opponents i didn noe.

and today, i wanna thank the driver of service 61 of SMRT
he found my bag, after i left it on board
chased the bus all the way to bukit batok to get it back
thank god it was still there

haiz
tmw working agn, need sm rest now
got to go then

blog agn soon yeah

nitez ya'all

2007-09-07T22:25:00.000+08:00

LIFELESS

hokaiz lemme see
what to update, hmmmmmmm

sorie az, haven had time much to update la

haiz ok lemme see what has got me excited thru out this week and the week b4 and week b4 last as well
cuz it seems i haven update much

hokaiz here we go

soccer.
long time never play
was walking straight b4 and now i limp abit
hurts la, sadly
and i've been bumped around so much la
tink i am gona break some bones sooner then later
but yeah. in that match i tink i score all the easy goals jz tap ins
and in another match b4 that, b4 i limped around
i had this one nice volley which i am pretty happy wiv, cuz i was being hustled arnd by the opposition and they were nice enuf to acknowledge it wiv an applause

work, hmmmm
azni's mom can cook well!!! she brought me lunch, which turned into dinner
haiz, i so loved it i brought the balance home to continue eating cuz there wasnt enuf rice
lol
she is working hard to improve her self at work, wish i had her drive
but the matter of fact is, i kinda dont like the place oredie, i am jz working cuz of ppl like
her, mike(sadly not workin at ios and is bz wiv ermmmhahahaz), lisa(which i haven seen so long).

and i miss my girlfriend so much

and soon, gona be fasting month, gosh thats reali fast
i met an old fren's dad, infact he is my cousin's cousin, so in a way he is related
met him at the clinic the other day, where i went for the doc appointment
and he was like
wow cant believe u and him(his son) now so big, still rmb when u and him competing
to be first and second in class(class ugame! oops hahahz) and ramadan and raya puasa
seems to come and go faster and faster, dont u tink so too?

that got me tinking as well, its kinda true. life seems to be moving in such a blur
i cant even keep track of the days anymore,and that is sad

well life is like htat, so what to do
gtg ya

nitez ya all!

2007-08-30T23:27:00.000+08:00

BACK TO WORK

ok the whole week has been busy wiv working
yeap, catching up wiv the money making part of my life
gudd thing about work is oni

1) meeting up wiv mike again
2) workin wiv my 'sis'
3) knowing that as the hour pass, i am earning 6.50 more in my account
4)my dear havin dinner wiv me after work
5)getting to see my old buddy from haagen at vivo once in a while!! QIU!!!!!

uh huh
yeap thats about it

i still have this problem with making it on time for opening the shop on time
its been like what, almost 4-5 months? and i still hav a problem making it
on time to help open the shop at 830
its like damned bloody frustrating la, maebe it has got to do with the fact
that i jz dont look forward to working, while others are making their way to
the sandy beaches of palawan,siloso or tanjong beach
i just hate it when here i am, draggin my sleepy freakin ass to work
and there i am seeing others waiting for the express to hav fun in the sun

ARGGGGHH @#*%$

well maebe its just jealousy
ahhahaz, but yeah smhow i love working cuz of the ppl
its always great to be working when mike is around
yesterday was one up better, wiv both mike and syahril around
and today, az came back, along wiv helen and jeff who dropped in to help wiv
the stocktake

well i honestly miss these few ppl

and next week on tues,
all the fun ppl will be dropping in to work
mike, syahril, me, az and still wondering who mite be pulled in

cant wait sia
YIKES!

and today had an unexpected chilling wiv my old brother
faizal, my partner in crime back in sec school days,
yeap we chilled along wiv k and oso other old frens
it was a great evening all in all

well gtg, reali pooped out
need to get sm shut eye

so nitez ya'all

2007-08-26T22:02:00.000+08:00

LOST HOMEGROUND

greetings
ok today i reali had a great day
well other then the lady of my heart returning home from her trip
also i had a great reunion wiv the old boys of INTAKE 02
we played soccer and had lunch and god i miss crapping wiv them

it was a smash planning the nite b4 wiv khair
and i am damned glad all the guys made the effort to come down
despite their busy schedule, girlfriend not allowing to play soccer
work, dates, early wake up on a sunday, and also last minute call ups

but as always, they dont disappoint

and so we woke up on a grey sunday morning
infact i woke up half hour b4 8, we had to start at 8 as 3 of the fellas had to rush off at 10
my mom and dad were at the market, my bro was still in bed
and there i was walking arnd the house groggy
banging here and there in fact

bath
and as i was eating my cheeseburger, eyes still half close
my house phone started to ring off the hook
khair: "eh wan, kao ade bola tak??"
me: "what the fuck, we plan everythin and bola we forget??"
GREAT
so we start ringin everybody up see who on earth got a friggin ball
i rang mabok up and lo and behold, he just woke up
heng i called him, cuz if not he wont come one!
and thank god, he got ball, so it was settled

i wore my fav white adidas jersy wiv black shorts
black nike socks
and.....this my fav,
my bros school shoe
HAH
yeap i lost my adidas predators like 3 months back, sob sob sob
and my fitness first towel
wallet and handphone and keys, and i went outa my house
infact the guys were like, thats all you bring??
hahahz yup thats all

and we headed out to our unoffical homeground at purmei
it was our THEATRE OF DREAMS, well maebe mine, cuz that was where my dreams came true
but now
omfg
it was like old trafford after world war 2!!

FLASHBACK:
during WW2, manchester was an important industrial site
housing several important factories putting in to the war effort(i tink)
during the blitz by the nazi germany, in the Battle of Britain,
manchester was hit badly by german stukas(or was it junkers?)
old trafford was hit by a stray bomb, and a part of its stands was damaged
and the miracle thin was a tree had grown from the rubble(or so i read)
and for a temp time, united played its games at its derby rivals ground

yeap the soccer court rabak to the core
walls fallin apart, and also, there was construction goin on there
hahahaz, what the hell, but dont matter, whenever got ball, we play soccer
simple as that

rx,hanks,zhyong and man came earliest
robert,me, erwin and k were there next
and since mabok was still otw i suggested a search party to search for a ball in the nearby jungle
its actuali a steep slope wiv an embankment
wiv a growth of lush greenery of abt 15-25 metres wide
the growth of towering trees and thick shrub(which sm of the shrub very tick vines, creepy)
make the place look like a jungle

well sm wanted to hav breakfast, wth,
in the end, hanks, bert and zyong went to gimme a hand
well actuali
i was the oni one who went down to search
the others were waiting for me back up stairs

its actuali a slippery embankment
so it was kinda dangerous
infact i knew the place quite well, since i always ram the ball thru here, idiot
so i had to search for the ball quite often
and there is this particular area where a bamboo tree, broken in half and sharp
is stickin out of the ground
one slip and i am dead

so there i was like an idiot ranger, goin thru the jungle, like tarzan holding on to vines
looking for a miracolous soccer ball
wiv the guys talking and making sure i was still alive
and lo and behold, i found one!!
hahahz not bad, my trekking skills still came in handy

and so me and hanks had a small kickabt
and when mabok came wiv a proper ball
we started playing
GOALLLLLLLLL x2
yeap the first match within 2 mins i tink, i put 2 in the net!!
yippie!!

but in fact most of the guys still had it in em
man scored quite a few from his running down the right side
rx still ram in hard the ball, erwin cant keep a hold on them
k oso got score a few braces
mabok, my fav goalie in street soccer to play wiv, despite looking so drunk, was still the best
erwin, and bert tackle very hard, i tink bert was the worst la
he almost took my ankle off
i cldnt stand after a crunching tackle by him
zyong, hahahaz, no nid say la ar, he still cant kick for his life, but yeah he was there for the fun
of it

went to hav lunch and we had a gudd time talking crap
infact it was the first time i went to vivo looking so crappy
the makcik there ask, ni dari sentosa? tak la cik, main bola ar, aye, teros datang gini?
yeap i was that messy
lol

ok the guys,
khair and erwin, well i meet em often and i am closest to em so yeah no nid updates

HANKS, the guy i always hav fun in soccer wiv, clash wiv him but hav fun teasing each other
infact we can talk abt anything la, and still dstrb one another, never fail to crack at each others
jokes, i jealous of his shoes thou, grrrrr, hardworking, after soccer still go work, CRAZY

MABOK, i spent 4 years of school wiv this bugger, drunk looking but funny fella, he hasnt change much, missed the days where we wld jz sit in training and look at pretty girls, infact
he was the first guy i made fren wiv in school, same class for the first 2 years, then we were
taking the same part for the our NCO year, i still rmbmr us goin out in the wee hours of the
morn and raiding the 7-11 at tiong for bread, the cashier dont know what to do, hahahaz

RX, well this fella, quiet and wise as always, smart guy, soon goin to attachment or smthin like
that, lab work he says,thou i dont crack jokes much wiv him, i had a gudd chat wiv him otw back
thou, jz sm talk abt school life, he's hasnt change much as well, wish cld get him attached.

BERT, this gay fella, still got the photo of him licking my ear while others were looking smart
what an arse, he the oni other JC fella there, mabok the other one, but despite him havin
test next thurs, he still made the effort to come down for soccer, one thing i respect abt him.
very fit, but very gay too, ass

MAN, our star, the lead actor for his school play, the guy wiv the talent to shine and also a
rugby tackle that i dont want to stand in the way, he afraid of his girl finding out we had soccer
today! hahahz, the girl didn let him play soccer, fuck! i pity him, dude, i'll lie for u anytime man

ZYONG, still as we rmbmred, the butt of our jokes, but yeah he still chill wiv us. the oni guy who
wld talk to me abt gundam seed and stuff, well what to do, i like the show, and he is a NUT abt
gundam seed, lol.u shld see the cd he burn for me

and so all gudd things must come to an end
the guys wiv the dates had to run,
the guy wiv the work oso need to run
and the rest had to head home

me? i just wanted to go home and wait for my her to tell me she is home safely
and guess what....

...she did, thank god for that....

nitez ya all!

"...for he may never discover the truth and never know why we cast him out,
then that is the future he must accept, for he must take what he is given..." by the exiled

all in all it was a gudd sunday, spent wiv the people i grew up wiv
so yeah
looking forward to more soccer over the next few weeks
so ciao ya all

city hall

2007-08-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

A GREAT DAY

greetings
reali had a great day
althou it almost didn work out
but u noe
things did work out in the end

hokay lets start

woke up at ten
to meet hq at 11 and pay my bills
skali aunt call
grandad fall sick need to go see doc
went to clinic, but doc refer to polyclinic and oso SGH if serious
but we didn noe where they were now, cuz they had left the house

problem was no one was free
all bz, and my mom need sleep cuz she working nite shift
so i was sooooo pening, need to meet hq and oso run find my missing grandma and pa
hmmm
ok so i rush to harbourfront MRT station, and meet hq first
then from there grab cab head to bukit mreah polyclinic
problem was i wasnt sure if they were there
so jz head in and took a look arnd
ooooh didn noe got cuties there, last time i went was all old nurses so i'm like WOW
but where were they? my grands i mean
i was looking thru out the reception area
no sign
my heart was abt to jump
when there they were, outside room 9
fooh heng ar

then after asking if all ok
my grandad tell me he wants to go smoke
so i accompanied him out
omg the urge to join him was intense
there he was puffing away
but i jz bit my finger and talk to him to distract

he talked abt his health
his past
how he wants all his grandchildren to be gudd kids to their parents
and he also showed me a card which i believe, is made of gold

its the.....CIVIL SERVICE CARD!!!

its the best card to own la
its a card given to those who have served the country as a civil servant
but not sure if its still given out now
but according to the receptionist its bleddy rare to find nowadays
it gives free medical services amounting into the millions if needed be

so u can go inside the hospital a hundred times, but wiv that card
its all FREE!!!
wow so lucky la grandpops
he was a WO1 in the army
and a gudd one at that from what i heard
so yeah i gues he deserved the card
but oni can be used by him and his spouse
so sad
tot i can borrow
lol

then met up wiv khair
chill in town whole day
actuali until nite la
lol
fun!!
we went to lepak at plaza sing
as he had to get smthin for smone
so help him lor
then got tok abt KUNG POW
lol
funnie movie
u all hav to go watch it
me, him and erwin all watch it at our own homes and talk abt it online
fun la!!
lol
that was the nite b4

so while we waiting at plaza sing
we went to watch a netball competition
sian
then got approach by an ang moh, ask us go clubbing wiv him
gudd looking btw, hot according to my gay standards
look like a model
i was like wth? lol then jz entertain him abit ar, talk to him abt the nite life
then oso show him the way
but khair underage anywayz(oops) so cannot go
lol so sorie my swedish or isit french brother, i cant join ya

then another tourist couple asked us abt directions agn
seems like we sm kinda info booth
lol
then we remeniscence abt our soccer days back in gess
omg
how i miss em

then after collecting our stuff
went to had dinner at aspirasi at boat quay
before making our way to esplanade to chill
when we went there, it was so empty la
then the place started to fill up
wiv matreps and watsoever

as we were ignoring them all
we planned soccer for tmw(sunday)
so one by one we called up all our old bros to come for a reunion long past its due
and so now we hav em!!
lol
so excited cant wait

then khair had to call up his char bor
wth
cannot wait go home ar??
we now planning soccer
smore i sad la
lol
my girl not here to talk to me
u got
humph!!
lol

then we chao home
in the bus oso got action
lol
one guy
tink damn chiko or jz sot in the head
he was like trying to get close and hug the girl beside him la
a nice decent girl btw
and he was acting sleeping and all that
i was hoping he fell off his seat
khair wanted to jump him
but i was telling him to restrain first

then the girl got up
then he got up as well
and started to lean close to the girl
like he wanted to grind her from the back
khair reali wanted to jump him this time
i was once agn telling him to sit and watch first
no point gettin involve, if the girl doesnt want us to

infact everyone else was watching
if we threw the first punch it was useless
cuz she didn ask for help
she cld jz say she didn ask for help
and then we wld be caught for assault

further more, he seem to be like handicapped or his brain smthin wrong
so i jz restrained khair from doin anythin stupid
and she got off the bus
but the most shocking thing was
a girl stood up and nw sat beside him
and she leaned on his shoulders
everyone sittin 2 seats behind the bus was shock
an uncle who had been talking to khair oso was shock
walaneh got gf, still want to chiko wiv another girl

well we shld hav jumped him but u noe
smthings jz werent plan to be like that

khair thanked me thou
for holding him back
well bro, it was for ur own gudd
we aint like last time man, we jump whenever we like
it aint civilised
we shldnt jz be fighting with out a reason
so yeah next time we jump on perverts orite!!
lol

so yeah gtg slep now
reali tired
tmw soccer
cant wait yeah!

nitez ya all!!
and i miss my dear naz so much!!
come back safely ok!

"...for he may never discover the truth and never know why we cast him out,
then that is the future he must accept, for he take what he is given..." by the exiled

2007-08-22T20:16:00.000+08:00

FUNERAL

not a gudd way to begin my holidays
but who am i to decide when a person meets his or her end in life
the last one i went to was almst 2 yrs ago, my aunt
and the one that affected me the most was 5 yrs ago, my uncle
and today its my moms cousin

yesterday ws celebration
and today turned to grief
how within 24 hours, things cld change so dramatically

it has been a while since i met all my family members
but this wasnt how i had wanted a reunion to be
not at a funeral

and funerals has been far and uncommon
lately it has been births and marriages
but today, it is death and funeral

T.O.D was 1157
C.O.D pneumonia
funny, he suffered from lung cancer and yet died from pneumonia
smtimes, u jz wonder, what the fuck is goin on wiv this fucking world

recieved the call arnd two
thank god i was still at home, i was abt to go out to gym
so i was able to accompany my mom

and i gues it was right that i went
as the only male member of my immediate family on my mom side available
i was able to make a show of presence representing my grandpa's side of the family
the other male members were still at work and oni the ladies were able to
take immediate emergency leave

on the way there
i tried to recall, the person he was and the times i did spent wiv him
sadly
it wasnt much, as we werent close
he was family, but wasnt an immediate family member
as i was remeniscing, the sky opened up, as if it knew, how i felt
althou i wasnt sad
but i was disappointed
cuz smtimes u wish that u had gotten to know a person much better when he was alive
but smtimes, things jz dont go the way u want it to be

i cld sympathise wiv the eldest son
he's jz a year older then me, probably 2
but yeah i felt for him
didn noe him well, infact i jz got to noe his name oni when i was readin the death cert

i reali sympathised wiv him when he was asked by his uncles to lead the final prayers
for heavens sake, he was already grievin and he was tearin and he was shaking his head
most probably cuz he didn noe how to lead.
stop forcing him can? i jz wanted to open my mouth and said it out for him
but i knew that the time and place wasnt right for me to dish out opinions

one thing i never do much at funerals is to cry
i never did cry, i got no idea why
everyone was crying, even tearing at most
there was this girl beside me, i got no idea who she was
she cried as well

i even try to joke to cheer up my aunts
and they did break into a smile
but that was all
i jz didn wanna be u noe
too rude by joking too much
the oni time i cried was at my aunt's funeral 2 years ago,
and tat was due to the fact that my cousins were now orphans
and that was the reason i cried for them

in the end, we returned home
and it was my dad and mom(again) turn to go and pay a visit

so here i am blogging
nothing happy this time round
it is time to grief
cuz today i remember those in my family that have gone

i remember them

"...for he may never discover the truth and never know why we cast him out,
then that is the future he must accept, for he must take what he is given..."

2007-08-21T21:55:00.000+08:00

EXILED

"for he may never discover the truth, and never know why we cast him out.
Then that is the future he must accept. For he must take, what he is given"

today as always
was a boring day

alone in studio
doin nothin much other then
i dont know
sittin alone most of the time?

well
at least there was alia and her trusty laptop
at least there was entertainment
half the time i was laughing my head off listenin to the Saturday Night Live
and Whose Line Is It Anyway

my pillar of strength in these hard times, naz,
spent time wiv me, had lunch wiv me
talked to me, and as always, made me smile and laugh

and the other half?
well......

okaiz, today, hmmmm

WANNA WISH MY DEAREST MOM A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
UR THE BEST MOM! AND FOR THAT I LOVE YOU!!
HEHEHEHEHE!!

naz, my sweetheart, accompanied me to raffles place, to get
sm cakes jz now.
see how i said cakes and not cake?
i bought slices, cuz my mom loves cheese cake, and to buy a whole cheese cake?
i hav to rob a bank in my current condition
and the makciks like me, see?? i told ya!!
apeks, makciks, nyonyas, pakciks, kids, tots and babies, they like to talk to me!!
hehehehe
the thin is, i like to smile and talk wiv em abit more then jz a stranger!!
lol

also,
wana congragulate my BEST FRIEND at sentosa, AZNI!!
hehehehe
i am so happie la babe, as long as ur happie wiv him, can oredie!!
well now u wana double date can!! hahahz!
and satday dont want work is cuz wiv bf! HUMPH!!!!
heheehe

looking forward to more soccer and also goin to gym
paul make sure u call me about soccer
erwin, tell me when the man utd soccer trainin
and anyone else, call me abt soccer will ya?

okaiz thats all
nitez ya all!!

2007-08-20T11:29:00.000+08:00

YES ITS FINALLY OVER

greetings fellow bloggers
well i jz am feelin happie this mornin
no idea why
but sleepy as well
maebe cuz i had a late night

hahahhaz

okaiz i am in studio now
listening to the crap goin on infront
and playing need for speed behind here
i jz cant listen to the things infront u noe
make me feel like maebe, there is smthin i shld hav done better

well the day started out fine
breakfast was gudd
everythin seemed ok
then i went back to z.z.z.z

and thats when things went head over heels

woke up at 8

althou i had told winnie i was leaving home at 8
i woke up at 8
damned how to even move my lazy butt
my mom was like eh, tot today submission, not goin school ar??

SHIT! GONA BE LATE!!

okaiz
slowly went to take a bathe, and then slowly
take my stuff
then i realised my damned fuckin mp3 no batt
haiz

took my model out and mom told me to take cab
hehehe
and she gave me money to aid me
THANX MOM!!

so went down, and there was like 4 ppl ahead of me waiting for cab
what the hell, and no cab so like useless right?
so walk abt 5 mins away to the main road
and along the way, the apeks, aunties, and kids were staring at me
like i was sm kinda freak
hahahhz
but they were jz curious what i was carrying arnd
THANX!!
they said it was nice and stuff

but i tink they haven seen sm of the others(or like erwin said, his kampung better)
asshole erwin, ur kampung can kena burn la basket
lolx
anywayz, i gues they are being supportive of me
after all they watch me grow

and the cab that i got next
was so super gudd la the uncle
hahahz
he damned gudd la
first thin he said was, wah boy very nice ar
smart boy
i was like hahhaz, thanx uncle
and he was askin me, late ar boy? nvm uncle drive for u fast fast
wow e drove like formula 1 la, he even "SELIT" into the queue outside the
buona vista exit
THANX UNCLE!
and he wished me luck agn

hmm today seems like a gudd dday for me

and i opened up my frenster, alot of ppl left sm comments
so i jz slowly accept and reply each and every one of them
and hopefuly got response agn
hehehhe

okaiz and so now i am in stuck in studio
and listening to this crap infront

haiz what a life

buaiz

2007-08-18T20:30:00.000+08:00

FIREWORKS!

okaiz
finally i had a gudd night sleep, in fact i slept a lot!
from one this morning to arnd 5 in the evenin
i did wake up in between la, but u noe, i didn do much so went back to bed

yesterday, was a great day spent wiv my dearest, naz,
whom i hadn't meet for like 4 days? yup missed her alot
and of cuz it was her bday, and our one month together, and i wasnt there for her
sorie dear, priorities
but yeah i hope i surprised u!
i gave her........a smthing!
lol ask her urslf, lol, shhh secrret
yup, she had asked me and i gues, it was the right time to surprise her
and i didn actuali had the time to surprise her wiv anything much
sadly
but the fireworks that i wanted to surprise her wiv, turned out not to be a surprise
no thanks to her fren!! grrrrr
ok ok, not actuali mad at her fren la, hahaahaz
and i love the DIY card u made dear, thanx so much!

okaiz
i cant wait for the upcoming hols
cause finally i dont have to go to studio
and be no one

yes i am a no one now
well, i dont see the use of blogging abt this anywayz
no one visit this blog anymore
hahahz
but yeah i gues i wana rant, and so i hav garnered a press conference in order to
clear the air.
since i got nothing better to do, and nothing to lose

first question anyone?

"why u quit the band??"

gudd question there, i quit is bcz i knew that the band was abt to be disbanded
anywayz. actuali, it wasnt abt to be disbanded, from what i heard or read
its actuali, they wanted to establish a new band, wivout me
so instead of being told in the face, " sorie, we're making a new band"
i jz quit first.
u noe its like: "ur firing me? hell no! i quit!"
i got no idea why the idea, of making a new band even came up among them, but
yeah i didn betray no one, i was betrayed
okaiz maebe the word betray is too strong, but i tink its the best word
to describe how i felt

next question? *hands go popping up*

you, go on

"what do u mean by betrayed?"

hmm gudd question there, okaiz, i duno what happened but yeah there seems to be
a rift growing in between me, and them. in fact i got no idea how it all started
well it seems i am able to talk to sm of them, but thats all i can do.
talk.
even now, i can still talk to them
but there's this warning that seems to be coming out wivout being said out loud,
you can talk, but thats all u can do wiv us. and i gues, betray, as in, u noe, once
were best of frens, now jz another classmate.

"any examples of their betraying actions??"

as i had said before, i cant sit wiv them and hav a conversation wivout it being
awkward. hmmm.

oh ya and they do things, wivout asking me to join em like they used to.
like last monday or smthin, u noe, they went to the national lib to do the project.
and i wasnt even told abt it? they enjoyed themselves, even went out to eat and stuff
it was smthin i used to be goin to wivout being asked.
i know i know, its not a big matter, but hey, i am
a fren right? if they used to ask me out and all that, why not now? i duno, i got
no ans for that.

and this wasnt the first time

on a previous occasion
was the same thing, jz before the submission of the first boards,
they were supposed to meet at the nat lib, to do sm
final works but i wasnt told abt it, infact i had to call the very same morning to
ask where were they when they were all there already doing their work.

oh yeah abt the discussion abt the new band
why cldnt they hav told me themselves? i mean if i was told in the face earlier on,
abt how the band is goin on wiv out me,
i wld hav accepted that and jz sing on wiv em, until the day comes i am not needed.
but no, it was all discussed wivout me, like cloak and dagger kinda thing.
i discovered all this talk in one of their blogs, and also when others who have
sympathy for what is happening, told me abt it.
a disappointment

"do u noe who is the master mind behind it all??"

master mind? no no, thats not the word, thats like saying he is a dictator
who is planning this ultimate control of others under him, taking in those he wants
and washing their brains so that they wont mix wiv those he doesnt want.

i got no comments abt this, cause i dont know whats the cause of it all.

one final question please *hands go up once more, bulbs flashing*

"do you think things are gona be the same agn? and how are u adapting?"

i am doing as best as i cld. things the same again? i duno, i leave that to fate
i am jz gona go on for the next year and a half on my own or in the sympathy of
others, there are still people who sympathise wiv me, and i
can accept that, althou i wish it wasnt made to sound like that.
thanks and wish the best for me.

me and my distant cousin from duno what part of the family tree, dr alee
has established two things from our convo today
that one
she is a nut
and two
i am a psycho
way to go girl!

here is a gist of our convo:

"Dr Aleeyah. Porcelain heart?" : When I grow up, I'm gonna be a Heartbreaker. says:
okay, weve established 2 things in this conversation_
"Dr Aleeyah. Porcelain heart?" : When I grow up, I'm gonna be a Heartbreaker. says:
-
"Dr Aleeyah. Porcelain heart?" : When I grow up, I'm gonna be a Heartbreaker. says:
YOU are PSYCHO
"Dr Aleeyah. Porcelain heart?" : When I grow up, I'm gonna be a Heartbreaker. says:
and I am NUTS
"Dr Aleeyah. Porcelain heart?" : When I grow up, I'm gonna be a Heartbreaker. says:
dont be what what whaaaattt?
"Dr Aleeyah. Porcelain heart?" : When I grow up, I'm gonna be a Heartbreaker. says:
darling, just because you have gay-like tendencies
"Dr Aleeyah. Porcelain heart?" : When I grow up, I'm gonna be a Heartbreaker. says:
dosent mean i have to stop you
"Dr Aleeyah. Porcelain heart?" : When I grow up, I'm gonna be a Heartbreaker. says:
ahahahahahahahahahahahaha
riduan 力端 says:
u said i had gay like tendencies
riduan 力端 says:
what is that
riduan 力端 says:
lol
"Dr Aleeyah. Porcelain heart?" : When I grow up, I'm gonna be a Heartbreaker. says:
ahahahaha
"Dr Aleeyah. Porcelain heart?" : When I grow up, I'm gonna be a Heartbreaker. says:
u tend to do or say stuff
"Dr Aleeyah. Porcelain heart?" : When I grow up, I'm gonna be a Heartbreaker. says:
that are usually synonymous
"Dr Aleeyah. Porcelain heart?" : When I grow up, I'm gonna be a Heartbreaker. says:
with gay men
"Dr Aleeyah. Porcelain heart?" : When I grow up, I'm gonna be a Heartbreaker. says:
ahahahahahaha

okaiz now that is confusing

gay like tendencies, hmmm muz be my softside acting up again
lol

2007-08-14T22:54:00.000+08:00

MONO MOOD

hello people
firstly wanna say smthings

i am missin my girl so much

sorie to az, haven talk much wiv u girl! no time to blog la! lol miss ya and oso the girls at IOS

and alee, bz so wasnt online yesterday

erwin need u tmw dude, asap

and officially i am pooped and sleepy

so people be back bloggin more active soon yeah

nitez ya all

quotes:....are u emotic or smthin?....nope, more like monotonous mood...

2007-08-09T23:15:00.000+08:00

NATIONAL DAY

was spent outside the whole day
wiv me and my girl
infact we spent the whole day walking and walking and walking
we watch rush hour first in the afternoon
then went to sim lim
then bugis
then to fullerton
then fort canning
then clarke quay
then c @ central
then holland v
then sent her home
we ended up laughing non stop la when i was sending her home!
crazy! love ya girl!

ok tis one for az,
jgn sedih2 kkz
they are not worth ur time
or energy
and stop eating the meds like its candies
u hav to be strong kkz
hope we can meet soon girl!

and erwin
hahahahz stupid ar simpson movie
hahahhz jackass, eh when wanna lend me ur headphones man
i want em!
i'll trade u three headphones for one!
deal? lol
me and him along wiv me gf went to buy his headphones which cost a bomb la!
eh more outings ar soon! lol

and alee, please, dont make me puke wiv that SERAI guy
u noe what i mean!!! HAHAHAHAHAHZ

kkkz gtg, night ya'all

2007-08-07T12:10:00.000+08:00

LACK OF CONTENT

hmmmm
well
i am lacking of content
some things i want to accomplish by tonight, hopefully(*prays hard*)

1- send in the rwp
2- do some of the detail designing shit on microstation, well i completed the drain
oredie, thanx to staying back that day wiv freddie
3- think what to do wiv my girl tmw, its public hols, so u noe, dono what to do
4- and, quitting the band if possible

okaiz, thats sm of the things i wanna do today,

enjoy this images of my project, no idea why i cant upload the rest thou, so ya enjoy this first! lol

sketch of space one

section which i kinda made into smthin funnie

board one, not kinda happie wiv it, but fred was like hey its nice u noe, i like the case study part

"why be the same, when you were born to be different"..."and then i think of "you laugh at me cause im different. I laugh at you cause ur all the same"...and ur sulking...is not...healthy, later ur face droop like a bulldog!"... bahh...happiness makes people hungry...thats why married pl gain weight...a phrase from a distant cousing from a long lost branch of the family! lol

cheers and happy national day!!!

2007-08-03T23:10:00.001+08:00

M.I.A

sorie dear ppl, hav been gone for kinda long time
has been a week hasnt it?
haiz
sorie u old blog of mine, i havent forgotten abt ya
jz that
all this project
is wearing me out

well how everyone doing huuh??

well me? i'm doin fine i gues
nothing much to say
usually go school oso, oni lookin forward to talking to the ladies in my class
and sending my gf home at the end of the day
she cheers me up. got to thank her for that
well, thats life so far.
gota go and hav an early nite

nitez ya'all

quotes:....the only 2 things i look forward to at school, firstly my girlfriend, and secondly the other lovely ladies in my class....

2007-07-27T08:36:00.000+08:00

DEAD BORED

arrived late for today's lect
well who gives a fuck
as always, kinda tired
and the freaking cold weather is not reali helping

woke up this morning
and was jz abt to stand up when suddnly i cldnt feel my knee
ouch!
know how does that feel?
like nothin dwn there to support me
jz sat back down and jz waited for my knee to wake up
in fact i waited for my whole body to wake up
seems like my mind was switched on, but my body jz wasnt responding

well thats all i jz wanted to talk abt
my knee and non responsive body.
talk later at night

cya'll arnd campus.

2007-07-24T23:20:00.000+08:00

CANT WAIT FOR THIS TO END

think it has been dragging for so long now

and i am growing tired of it

so hopefully

after this

after what has to be done, been done

i jz want to walk away from all this

draw the curtains on me

i've had enough

Walking Away From All This

By Longinus666, deviantart.com

2007-07-23T21:38:00.000+08:00

*CLAP CLAP*

okaiz
today dont know how
ended up jamming

school seem kinda weird now
dont know whats wrong
things jz doesnt seem the same now

anywayz
the jamming session was ok
kinda beneficial for me i tink
alee,syaz,iman and fuad girls, mus and huda respectively, were there as audience
thanx alee, for lending me a hand when i was sempoting towards the end
thanx syaz too,
syaz had gudd things to say for me
and for that i am thankful to her
boosting my confidence

well hopefully by the time the auditions this wed, i will be ready
cuz i can feel the butterflies in my guts
well hopefully to get over and done wiv this event,
then its the end of everything else

love my girl

nitez ya'all!!

2007-07-23T01:10:00.000+08:00

YOUR FAITH GIVES ME STRENGTH

enuff said

nitez ya all!

2007-07-21T23:58:00.000+08:00

SIX FEET FROM THE EDGE: CREED

havent heard this song in the longest of time
and i am somhow in the mood for it now
well dont worie, nothing to do with my girl, me and her doin great thus far,
jz accompanied her jz now, and had a great time wiv her
so yeah, dont worie girl nothing to do with you*winks*

just feel like putting this song up

"....Reflecting on all of my mistakes
I thought I found the road to somewhere
Somewhere in His grace...."

Lyrics

Please come now
I think I'm falling
Holding on to all I think is safe
It seems I've found the road to nowhere
And I'm trying to escape
I yelled back when i heard thunder
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say...

(CHORUS)
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge
And I'm thinking
Maybe six feet ain't so far down

I'm looking down
Now that it's over
Reflecting on all of my mistakes
I thought I found the road to somewhere
Somewhere in His grace
I cried out
Heaven save me
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say...

(CHORUS)
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge
And I'm thinkin
Maybe six feet ain't so far down

(repeat chorus)

I'm so far down
Sad eyes follow me
But I still belive there's something left for me
So please come stay with me
Cause I still believe there's something left for you and me
For you and me
For you and me
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge And I'm thinking
Hold me now I'm six feet from the edge And I'm thinking
Maybe six feet ain't so far down....

(repeat chorus)

Please come now
I think I'm falling
Holding on to all I think is safe...

quotes: i give up...

2007-07-20T00:11:00.000+08:00

SOME PIX TO SHARE

well, now kinda bz doin the microstation
jz came back home from erwin's hs at kovan melody
bastard u erwin
hahahz
got a story to tell ya'all
dont ever trust erwin when he gives directions!!
lol
kkz, that one can blog another time
today got no time, so jz show pix to ya all okeei!!
enjoy ya'all

so what he didn win eh? still the eligible bachelor he is
but like the man him self said "...i may be single, but i am not available..."

haz, AD and me

me and AD in the bus from clementi, goin to support zee!

smthing for my dear

with her

nitez ya'all!!

i am imperfect, so hold me and make me feel perfect even just for a moment

2007-07-18T10:45:00.000+08:00

STUCK IN CLASS

( ),,,,( ) ,,,,,,,,,,,,
( = ,= ) ( sianz )
-
(,,,) : (,,,)
(_)(_)

am in class
i am sleepy and i am sianz

and i am talking to her on the phone

what a life in school, sianz

lol

well cya'all arnd school kkz!!

2007-07-16T23:45:00.000+08:00

ONESIXZEROSEVENZEROSEVEN

yeap
today
this very day

16th of July 2007

16/07/07

we got together

love you girl!

and i celebrated the night away
by rocking with my band.

a girl to call his own,
to be part of a rock band,

its every guy's dream

what more can a guy ask for?

hmm no idea

well i hav to think more on this, then i'll get back to ya my dear readers.

gtg, nitez ya'all!!

quotes:....trust me dear, i wont go that far....

2007-07-15T01:02:00.000+08:00

meet the original crazy ladies of IOS

well, they're the onli ones left there, plus chloe! and a new additions is Yunz the gramafone girl!! lol!!

well lisa!! see ya in two weeks time!! hahaz this girl joker like crazy one! lol

tmw hope to bump into u and ur bf ar!! hahahahaz

and az! cheer up ar!! buat bodoh ngan si dietu!! lol, gi cari crush2 yg lain!! lol

kkz gtg!

nitez ya'all

2007-07-13T22:54:00.000+08:00

THE MOST ELIGIBLE BACHELOR IN SPORE POLY with riduan and andy

okay so this is my buddy and lead guitarist, fahmi zee!!*claps*

okaiz zee is officialy the most eligible bachelor in School of BE, Singapore Poly and some say Deskar road

ooops, i mean

hahahaz

okay so girl, ladies, woman, transvestites and gays,
get ready,
on your mark,
get set,

GO!!!

yeah hahahz

while he is looking gudd, let me and andy(sorie, he's attached) be behind the spotlight

and heres our pics!!!

BON JOLI!!

me in pink

in pink again

and again pink!!

looking gudd aint we buddy??

wanna buy not andy??? hahaz

i can kick the ROCK's ass anytime

no wonder ashlee loves u hahahaz

okaiz this one tink buy for venus can la, not u!!

with love, comes great responsibility

tag team champs of BE

hehehehe

2007-07-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU....

it has been awhile,
since i feel the need to love
and i gues,
i have found it now,

with her

met her today,
last saturday's date seem like years ago

once agn,
we met each other at outram, and once more i was searching for her
hahahz

and we wore the same colors!!
green and white!!
its fated!!
hahahahaz

she was with her girls
and i was with my guys

but today we just wanted to spend some lone time tghtr

planned to head to esplanade to sit down and chill, or maebe even fullerton

but in the end, my stomach decided for us

hehehehehe

ended up eatin at Aspirasi Chiken rice

yumyum my fav

we shared the plate tghtr, suapkan si manje i tu

hahahz

then after that walk along the pubs at spore river

and plopped our butts down jz outside OUB tower i tink

i didn realie care where we were

it was jz her and me

lol

we chatted, abt alot of stuff

and yes, she loves me, and i now love her as well

so guys, i gues my days as a bachelor are numbered

sorie dudes

hahahahahz

i love havin her in my arms,

feels so great,her hair smells nice,felt warmth, and i gues, i feel loved

and thats how we ended our date today

with a hug

and a kiss her on her cheeks

and i hav to admit, i'm kinda admire her that she didn blush at all

and its her first!

u left me smiling on the ride home girl

love ya!!

quotes:...you make me smile....

2007-07-11T23:53:00.000+08:00

WIPE THOSE TEARS AWAY...

today's post will be dedicated to that special someone

i know its been hard on you this past few days

and i gues, things just get too complicated

when i choose to see things

thru the eyes of a torn man

i dont know who to believe and what to believe

i feel for my bro, his pain and all

and i feel for you too, cause after all you are special

like you said, lets not mix friendship with relationship

lets forget about all this

wipe away your tears

lets dream about what we talk about yesterday

you've opened your heart, i gues its time i opened mine to you as well

lets be a part of each other, and not apart from each other

trying not to look away

2007-07-11T01:33:00.000+08:00

2ND POST WITHIN 6 HOURS

this will be my second post within 6 hours
posted one yesterday at 10pm
and now its since i am awake and still feeling excited after jamming jz now
so decided to blog smore

lol

okaiz still awake and readin thru the stupid rwps thingy
cant believe that i am actualli studying right??
yeah you guys shld be cuz i am
haahhahahaz

okaiz was jz readin zee's blog and yeah
i still cant believe that hell!
i did sing well at yesterday's jamming session
fuck i felt like chester from linkin park
jz throw all my freaking worries and thoughts out the window
all that major CLUSTERFUCK can jz fuck off
and jz concentrated on one thing and on one thing dat i do best at in the band
SING
hahahz

okaiz i did sound like a fuckin crap asshole jerk frog the last time we had the girls
over to listen and watch
and according to smone i can sing, but not a gudd singer o_O, so yeah
well another girl tot differently thou, she liked it alot

tink yesterday's 2 hour session proved
that i can sing!! made ya eat ur words zee!! and the next time u doubt me i will cut of ur balls!!

tink the prblm is smtimes, we hav to choose the kinda song tat suits all our taste
look at hw fast i caught this song
rmbbmr silverstein?? already dead?? fark that was suck a terrible song rmbmr

well you see ar

me: emo shit songs, plus certain slow rock and rock tunes
zee: a weird mix of songs, the oni one who can adapt to mine and haz difference
haz: rock, hard rock, certain punk, metal, head banging la
fuad: hmm this guy abit hard to find which one reali suits him,, lol

hw can a band be so fuckin diff grps of ppl??
i dont know la

muahahaha

miss my choir days, didn hav to sing the lead, cuz i was in a grp of singers!!
but now that i am in a band
being the front man kinda sucks
hav to sing alone, while the rest rocking the beat behind me

smtimes zee does chip in to help me when i am lost
haz oso, but he is bz wiv his drums
and ad like to do the ....na-na-na-na....thing while wiv his base

but most of the time i am singing alone and it realie gets the nerves

in other words, its like me standing on stage naked

god forbid that

hhahahaz

i felt like jumping up and down when singing that song

what i've done!!!!! hahahahz friggin cool song

tink our band shld jz do linkin park covers dudes

all those head banging rock shld jz be thrown outta the window and we
focus on linkin park kinda songs

hell maebe we shld even rename the band
SHOCKW4VE to LINKIN FARK
COOL
hahhahaz

cant wait to jam agn
jz make sure this time no girls again, they are jz gona make me fucking confused
and fcuking nervous,

so brothers, lets go!!!!!!!!!!

quote:
[and dun fgt...itz not the looks or wad dude...itz the heart! our heart is diff from ppl i noe...]

2007-07-10T11:39:00.000+08:00

A MAJOR CLUSTERFUCK

WHAT I'VE DONE!!!!

nah i didn do anythin bad
today
was a great freaking day

in studio
duno y today
was so damned hyper
hhahahz, stupid turtle as always disturbin me
one day i am so gona smack her on the head!
then i teased linen, say her drawing y got XXX
lol
chased after me in the studio
presentation done!
all done and over with

headed for lunch!
oh my god, so many girls at fc1 today
hot, hoT, hOT, HOT
i didn even touch my food la!
haahhahz
too bz looking at girls left right front back
the guys were like kuai tian! eh
lol
haiz, tot i was in heaven
lol

jamming after that
damn fun la
hahahz
tink its the best session ever
i wanna thank god that there were no girls to be moseying arnd today
we went to a jamming studio at outram
tiet studio
freaking cool la the place
we managed to bring 5-6 songs within the first half an hour
duno abt the rest
but today i felt like so damn cool la
gosh felt like chester from linkin park
wahahahahahahah

FROM YESTERDAY'S POST

got certain feedback

guess there are sm people
who feels like i was pointing a finger to them
when i posted MY rants on MY blog

well its sad if you feel that way
cause it just goes to show, that you felt the guilt
and what i say does hit home

and the fact that you cant accept that fact, and you blame others for it,
goes to show
how you never listen
never understand
never stop to think

never blaming oneself, always blaming others.

i pity,
i pity your inabilty to see
and to hear yourself speak.

because if you could
you will see yourself in those you hurt

in the first place, i wasnt talking about any one person

i was talking in general terms

i have eyes to see
and
ears to listen

i dont hide
i speak the truth
and i hate those who lie
and hide the truth
from me

i speak out

towards a society, which looks down on others who sin,
yet they become the very thing,
they look down upon

how can they be proud of themselves

i can never understand

AND NOW THE MAJOR CLUSTERFUCK(well it means misunderstanding)

well there was smthin here, but now its been taken down due to unforeseen circumstances.
sorry for the inconvenience.

2007-07-08T23:17:00.000+08:00

A DUTY TO FRIEND AND GOD

how one day

changes everything

one day, i was on the top of the world with smone
and the next i am draggin a brother out of a shithole

one moment i was on the verge of heaven
and the next i am in the depths of hell

one moment i felt hope from you
and the next i felt lies and betrayal from you

one moment there was light for him
and now, only darkness

to a friend, a bro,
now that the light has dimmed
we will find another source out there
there will always be another source of hope and light
i told u once
dont ever put so much hope and all ur dreams on any one girl
cuz once they are gone
they take everything wiv em, and will nvr leave a single scrap of hope behind
they take, and they never give back

i gues my heck care attitude does hav its advantages

for one
i dont reali know what love means
cuz i dont reali care much
felt it once, and nvr felt it agn

made me who i am today
not my kinda thing

gues thats y i flirt and flirt
date and date
and never realy cared about a relationship

enjoy a few months of no strings attached relationship
then poof
they're gone
jz like that

leavin me to pick up the scraps on my own

cant say i regret it, but hey
better then havin nothin eh

and that is why i am always in shit hole
i dig a shit hole and like it and nvr wanted to leave it agn

OKAY now lets talk about the theme of my today's post first

A DUTY TO FRIEND AND GOD

seems kinda daunting right?
considerin i am not a man of god
i cant even keep to the five times a day practice
what more to keep watch over a friend who has entrusted me in keepin an eye over his
actions
and what more now that god noes i hav this duty to carry out, cuz if i dont do it,
hell i am sure to confirm end up in hell and fuckin burn

i will do the job as best i can
cant promise i wont stray from my duties, but hell i would kill anyone who tries to stop you
you know i am gudd for that
jz goes to show, u mite be right smtimes, but i am right at others too
dont let anyone tell you that you're not gudd enuf
especially not smone who aint good enuf herself

like i've said, show the real you now that you have changed
you've hid in a shell too long
its time you show who the real you is
cuz its now the new you

we take what is given
we accept what fate has given to us

and now for smthin i hav thought in my head and kept in my chest for way too long

now i dont know if what i've held true for so long
is actuali more true then expected

i hv nvr look at a malay girl
and saw hope
well maebe one, and another most recently
but even that i dont know

no disrespect intended on any of my freinds who read this
malay girls are meant to be gudd friends, i hav a life long friend, 2 sisters and a shopping buddy

but to me
a malay girl
i cant hav a relationship wiv anyone of em
no idea why
i jz cant look at them in the eye and say confidently yes, she is the one for me

i hav always look on the other side of the street when it comes to finding a girl i want
not on kampong melayu, but at chinatown
okaiz tats kinda lame
but u get the idea
i hav a weakness for chinese girls, and i seriously mean it

ask andy, hey buddy, sorie i did what i did, well we can now laugh at her cant we?? but hey now, we're fine agn eh? sorie dude
hmm lemme see
oh yeah erwin u gay shit, u noe me, hw i hav always talk abt chi girls
and band fellas, u noe my first crush in poly life, its a chi girl
and my gym buddy, u noe the gym chick, sigh all time number one crush

well i gues yeah they're jz able to tip me off my seat
yeah yeah i noe
the kinda chi girl i like are those cutesy2 kind, wear very short skirt and tight2,
sm of em drink, like to party too
but hey!
look at our malay girls now too! they too ar slowly bcmin like that.
well the cutesy part
hard to say
even those wearing tudong, i hav serious doubts whether all of em are realie2 what they potray

there was a bunch i hav known
we all went to hav a picnic at the beach
and ended up swimming
all those wearing tudong
took em off and went swimming wiv us
dont care they hugged the guys and play in the water
we played truth or dare
and there they were kissing their bfs in the open infront of us all

i was so shock at what i was seeing

yes i am not religious myself, but can u imagine, they are claiming to be like religious or smthin
and this is how they carry themselves??
i nvr did claim i pray 5 times a day and do all that god told us to do thing
i sin and i dont hide away from it

i dont drink, dont do drugs and i dont go arnd sleeping wiv any girls
i jz noe where to draw the line

from that moment, i knew, tudong doesnt mean they are all do gooders, and i was to never ever
fall for one, unless she really really is gudd by nature and not by force

i noe i noe
sm chi girls are wild and love to party
but hey, sm i noe
they are realie decent at heart
they've never slept with their bfs
and they dont ask for it
i realie look at them and wonder has the world realie gone topsy turvy??

those who wear more, cover here and there, go pray and claim to noe god and a believer
are actuali the ones who sin more
then those
who wear less, and do not call god by the same name, party and have fun, yet are subtle and
able to define what is wrong from what is right

under all that they hide, are they still pure?
good question, ask around, i dont know

mite as well go for a chi girl whom i can look at and nod my head and say in my heart
yeah, she's the one for me,maebe not forever, but hey jz for awhile wont hurt

not all malay girls are turnin like that, there is one
i noe who is as gudd as they get, reali religious and diff from those i'v dated
but i still hav doubts in my head when it comes to decidin at the end of the day

seriously, chi girls, got one of em i dated
i tell her i dont like her doin that, she didn do it
told her to cut down on drinking, she stop
woah! see they can impress me a whole lot
wth

they uds me, they dont reali talk abt religion and all that
cuz whats impt is today
if i cant even win her heart, what more abt marrying her in the future
y tink abt tmw, when today i cant even survive it

they noe hw to hav fun and look gudd at the same time
well yeah malay girl oso the fashion ain that bad la
but chi girls i know, gosh they dress up nice
and noe hw to look after them figures too
not saying our malay girls duno hw to kip fit and dress up nicely
hey bro, that girl in our gems class, tsk tsk tsk and hw abt maria sharapova malay versions girl at fc 1
tsk tsk tsk hot stuff

but i gues at the end of the day
its in my head
i jz rather a chi girl i gues

i noe, a sad life for me
i wish i nvr had to post all this words
but when i see arnd me
and i see that smthins are better said then hide
i speak the truth
and i hope ppl reflect and look around before they even criticise me

and bro i cant accept the fate u want me to have
sorie to disapoint u there
i decide my own life
jz like u have decided urs, i will make sure urs stay that way
but u cant decide for me, not ever

and you,
sorie, but i jz cldnt talk yesterday, i just had to think at where shld i draw the line
the problem was, i clndt jz think wiv my heart, i had to think with my head as well
this is aint a small issue, i can jz choose to heck care, but i cant
its time i make a stand smwhere, but i know its on neither side, my place
is in between you and him, i cant choose, sorie about that.

and thank you, you know who, for at the very least chearing me up
despite all this crap around me, and rest well ya

we take what is given

2007-07-07T22:52:00.000+08:00

YOU AND ME

first things first

watching the concert and supporting the cause!!

visit http://www.liveearth.org/ and play a part in savin the earth!

e friggin rain canceled that match
freakin saded la!!!

07.07.07 line7 jersey with the number 7, sigh, tot it wld be fated for me to score 7

but a dream it shall always remain

well its ok,after that went out wiv her
so that kinda saved my day
but it didn start out as i had planned
lol

i was late
by half an hour
oops,sorie(-_-")
cuz i didn expect the bus too be so friggin late!!
and she was 15 mins earlier then the ETA

and worst still
met her on the wrong mrt platform
tot NEL but she was on the EWL
sorie agn

then went to vivo
and watched transformers
realie nice la the movie!!
so gona buy the freakin dvd!! my family wants to watch it at home!! lol

after that went to sit down on the third deck
and we chatted
about alot of thins

then skali bumped into my kakak sedare!!
sial la
mati sak!!
fark, wonder if she gona pecah lobang and tell the whole family abt it!!
farkin dead if she does
not ready to intro her to family yet
i mean
well haven even start a relationship yet, wat more bring a girl to the famili right
tis ok
i trust my kakak sedare
after all she is my kakak sedare, am very close wiv her since i was a kidd
lol

then went to visit my buddy QIU!!!
hahhahaz
wow she is a brownie
well she wear the brown shirt ma
lol
but those in orange shirts are kinda cute!! lol
they're the oni ones wearin short pants
hmmm
i wonder why

then went to eat
well i ate and she watched
tink she was cursing me or smthin, cuz i made her stay longer despite her wanting to go home at 6!
hehehehe, i was realie hungry la!
lol
then met nana, or nuri, rmbmr her haz??
she was wiv a fren
jz said hie and went back to eatin

after that send her home
and thats abt it!
hope u had a great day out! cuz i did!
according to her our first date, so yeah! cherish it girl!

gtg then
nitez ya'all

beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder

2007-07-06T21:08:00.000+08:00

THURSDAY FRIDAY SATURDAY

creepy?? scary?? hehehe i like that one

okaiz on thurs
had a pretty gudd day with the ppl in studio
threw all my tinking and all that down the drain
and juz get on with life
and ended up taking pics wiv all the best peeps in studio

winnie's no lenses glasses! hahaz crazy

nutty professor vers.017

this looks creepy like he hangin or smthin lol

emotional times outside the studio

lone skater

mija and alee

QI and linen

hui ngee and winnie i like their digi cam, can take infra red or smthin duno what la! thats hw i took that creepy eye pic. lol

we were mourning for a fallen friend, thus the mourning colors of black

even got freddie to pose wiv us, as if we kena detention like that lol

grabbed this from zee's frenster, i missed last year sigh

was wiv erwin at queens to buy sm stuff
met wiv faizal and his ppl yesterday after that
sat down, talked crap, they drank tiger,i drink sugar cane
hahahaz
had a meal as all of us sat down and chatted abt sm 'underground' stuff
went home late after that

today went to town, tot goin to bugis wiv zee but he nvr did call me back
no idea why or what happened to that guy
anywayz, went to borders
my fav place to chill
on my own that is
read the man utd magazine, its so ex now cant afford it
lots of pretty girls there as always!! but i was so engrossed in reading that time jz went by

sadly the clone war series hav run out
and not sure they are ordering anymore
if i was to order, sial la cost a bomb and hav to wait for 4-6 weeks for it
sigh

but i got the new legacy series!! lol
i've read it twice since i bought it jz now

THE LEGACY SERIES

clone war series

the comic adaptation of star wars ep 3 and jedi council acts of war edition

well tmw is the 07.07.07 and i am gona wear my line7 jersey with my number 7 on the back
and hopefully
i am gona score 7! lol

save the earth!!! support the cause yeah!! looking forward to taht concert tmw evenin at 7!
tune it okaiz!!

nitez ya'all!!

i am goin nowhere now

2007-07-04T22:52:00.000+08:00

RANDOM

yeah all light up tghtr now! hapie bday to you.....

eating so much eversince....

hahahz! andy found ur pic!! surveying whose curves ar?? i noe there got no hill!! lol!!

nothin to do in human diseases class, draw a crab with a sign. lol! 07.07.07 save the earth concert!! lol same day i am gona play in my first field match in a long time!! hope to score 7!! lol

sigh, last day of gems class
gonna miss lots of thins
lol
zee u noe what i mean eh?? hehehe
u take one i take one ar?? hua hua hua

you shall always be my lil secret

2007-07-03T13:10:00.000+08:00

IF I HAD JUST TRIED.....

what if a friend tells u
that smone else
mite have been the one for u
if u had jz been a lil patient
and wait
and wait
and jz kept on tryin
and that u mite hav won HER heart?
that u had the chance
even if its jz 10 percent out of a hundred?

what wld u do?
giv up everythin?

i cld hav won HER heart
and yet
i didn wait long enough
and tried hard enough
and now

well whats the use tinkning abt it
time has jz passed me by
i gues its just a lil too late

sm excerpts i had with my friend
what my friend told me abt what that girl feels abt my present status

"....she did seem a lil disappointed when i broke it to her the year1 girl u were talkin to...."

"...kind of..."

"...cant really tell..."

"...i tink she has a soft spot for you anyway..."

"...and u keep saying how you cant find a girl ke aper bende gitu..."

"...like ur not good enough..."

"...just had to open ur eyes a lil maybe..."

"...and not rush..."

"...shed make references to you when we converse..."

"...dosent happen unless you think of the person alot..."

"...you gave her..."

"...u were teased bout it at k..."

me:"...okaiz i did tell her on her.....cuz i felt bad that she cried abt it...thats y i gav up on her for
the first time round, felt maebe u noe, my luck wasnt up yet...then tot the opp wld cm
earlier this year, but still once agn i failed..."

"...and, why didnt you do whatever it is you had in mind for her birthday..."

me:"u noe she wanted me to giv her that...i had smthin in mind to giv her that amount...but not
exectly that amount and not exactly real..."

"...and, you keep rushing into things...no mattr how much you tell urslef not to...do you realise that?...you dont have patience"

me:"...i dont know, i jz hav a real soft spot for her ...out of everyone else i asked her out the first time after a whole year...am i not being patient enuf??..."

"...you are showing signs of impatinetness now anyways...if u have a soft spot for her...and if you think shes worth a try...then BE PATIENT...no matter how long...but if u CANT WAIT THAT LONG...then move on..."

me:"...well u see i tot she had smone else in mind...thats y i kinda moved on..."

"she did...and that asshole kinda broke her heart, you know..."

me:"...if thins dont work out...in the distant future...a scenario...i would like to contact her, and ask her out for a drink, and see if thins work out..."

"...specify drink when you do...like coffee or something..."

me:"...one wish..."

seriously
looking back
maybe, just maybe, i mite hav, i dont know
god
i feel like taking a walk now
yeah maebe thats what i do, the mornin air, and silence will clear my mind once again

and thanx, for telling me all, friend, u noe who u r, jz dont make it look obvious its ya here on my blog

and guys u noe, i noe, we dont hav to talk abt it here.

nitez ya'all

taking a walk in my place of soltitude...

riduan commited his sin at 2:05am

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

PEOPLE TAKE PIC OF SITE, I TAKE PIC OF US! FARKING CRAZY FCUK! (EDITED VERSION PLUS ACCOUNTS OF TODAY BUT SADLY CANT FIND ANDY'S PIX!! SORIE!!)

okaiz today went to jam
STUPID
had audience
STUPID
6 girls
STUPID
cause i was nervous
STUPID
sang like crap
STUPID
why am i so dumb2
STUPID
why cant i sing like i used to
STUPID
or when we were practicing in the morn
STUPID
everythin was ok, swee swee
STUPID
then came the time
STUPID
i froze like a farkin statue and sang like a freakin frog
STUPID
oh y oh y am i so farrkgin idiotic
STUPID
cant imagine singin on stage!!
STUPID
gona collapse and faint from stage fright!!
STUPID
sigh
i am so
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID
STUPID

and zee, if u need smone to kill smone else
call me man
i can arrange a hit for ya
or i can jz do it
myself
no prices for ur first 2 kills
gimme the names
i hav one in mind
but i dont if u want it to be done

hahahahaaha
call me dude
life's a bitch
agreed?
well lets go and find u noe what tmw!!
wanna let go all this pent up needs in me!!
wahahahhaha
ciaoz!

and the pics

location of site, HYDERABAD road

ma'am zai car, the guys jz wana burn it

zee making a difference

mr leonard's car,haz peeing on it

and finally me

got one more of andy being a surveyor, but i cant seem to find it, i'll put it up later ar andy!!

okaiz gtg nw, catch me arnd campus ya all

THE EMPTY SPACE IS YET TO BE FILLED

2007-06-29T20:29:00.000+08:00

GROWING UP TOO SOON

met an old friend yesterday
i was on the way back from haz's places
and as usual, when cming back from campus
or when travelling alone
i wasnt in the best of moods
and being sleepy didn really help

so was waiting for the bus
jz outside holland
and a pretty lil thin in a yellow dress was walking up
she walk past and gues i was looking at her or smthing

but funnie thing was
i didn notice my fren standing walking in my direction beside her
as she was walking in the opposite direction
as i was staring out once again at the road
i suddenly felt smone standing beside me

i gues in space constraint spore
its normal to be standing kinda close to strangers
but this fella
was standing way too close
and i didn like it
as i turned arnd to stare at him
i then sddnly realised
its hassan
the hell? its been awhile hasnt it?

chatted awhile
took the same bus as me
and we changed numbers
before once again we went back to our lives

it was then i realised
how fast we're growing up
or old for that matter of fact
this guy, i tink i can call a close friend back when i was in their click
was now goin to ns in a few weeks time
and i was just playing soccer wiv him a couple of months back
and its not him alone

althou not all close friends
they are still people i know
if not play soccer wiv, its work with em
too many friend i hav made
all goin into army barracks for the next 2 1/2 years of their life
wont be seein much of em
jeff, bj, jam, mick, and others to name a few

when its my turn
less then 2 years from now
when i am 20
i will look back
and wonder
have i lived enough for the past ten years of my life?
cause now i will be in my twenties, and 2 1/2 years out of ten will be consumed in a uniform
and serving my country

now i tink abt old friends gone
when the time comes, i wonder if i will rmbmr any of em?

anywayz
she was soo cute la yestrday
buy the biscuits for me, to replace the ciggies that i crave for
appreciate it alot
lets go out soon kkz (",)

nitez ya all!

THE EMPTY SPACE IS YET TO BE FILLED

2007-06-28T01:19:00.000+08:00

LEPAK LAGI!!

today
school
test was easy
kena tahan by police for not wearing helmet
boring

thought of goin home after that
was already at bukit merah
zee called, lets go national lib
gr8
met my an old friend in the bus
talk crapped about our historical past
went to walk arnd wiv him at bugis street
then went to national lib and read up on sm stupid books
trust me, you dont wanna noe

then met zee and ril
lepak at lib awhile
went to eat nasi lemak,at sunshine plaza
second plate of the same thin of the day
then walked from sunshine plaza to esplanade
saw a les couple, wee weet, hahaz, we all stare2 disturb
then lepak at merlion(why this place again?? sigh)
play guitar, sing song
discuss y that girl in blue is out wiv a mat rep
or for that matter of fact why all the gr8 girls wiv mat reps
ape la kekurangan kiter ni??
hahaz
then went smwhere behind fullerton there and jz sing louder and play the guitar
zee went emo mode, didn wanna dstrb
me n ril were oredie lying on the floor like nutcases

and

i wana say i am so sorie to someone
for making her so woried
about that incident
i noe u care, i shld hav thought about you as well
next time, i take the bus, lol
okay?? (",)
and i am changing a bit at a time
jz so you know
while i change, wait ok?

ok here are sm pics that didn made it up the last time

me and zee

zee(duno smiling at what)

a new friend thinesh(is that correct??) or anei according to zee

free ndp

the fellas

ril and zee

ril trying to eat our durians

me and zee

everyone tghtr now hahaha

pity my buddy here, so emo until like that

people were looking at us siallll

lying down like no one business

lost in time lol

reflecting on our lifes

nice view

one last pic

me at work wiv az(hey az!! hahaz!!) and elaine tryin out the fans

us wiv mark from IOS hahaz

and to chris, my old buddy and boss, congrats for being in TODAY newspaper!! reali respect u dude!! better times ahead bro!!

got one more pic, of me and her
lol
but not for u guys to see
my eyes onli!!
lol
gudd nite all!!

2007-06-25T20:14:00.000+08:00

WHEN DO YOU DECIDE ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

its been a reali buzy weekend for me
lots of roving around
in and out of the country
meeting people
lazing around
having my laptop charger fried
bought my new mp3

yeap

you name it
i did it

what could go wrong did go wrong

and what could have been great
still went wrong

hmmm
lemme see
lets start wiv last friday

after finding smone to replace me the day before
i still had to come for the meeting early in the mornin
this will be my first shop meeting
god i was hungry
so early had to be there oredie
didn even grab a bite

rush out
went to cmpb
had to extend me passport and apply to leave the the freaking country
cause they scared we cabot b4 we serve ns
had to went there twice
cause my bro was still a minor
and we had to bring his birth cert in order to extend his passport

the irony of the fact is that
he didn have to be there
jz my mom and his birth cert was enough
wata stupeed system!!

then rush again
till late aftn
went to vivo city
was supposed to meet the fellas to lepak
in the end, ended up shopping for my mp3 alone
bought myself a YP-K3 samsung MP3!!
red in colour!! weee~
actuali was looking for a pink one, but didn hav
well red is nice and bright!! so that wld do!

saturday
well i woke up early
this time round
accompany my parents to J.B
my mom went to pasar larkin
had to send her baju kurung for the upcoming hari raya
dragged my lazy ass of the bed and accompanied the whole family
reached there
sent the cloth to the tailor
had breakfast,
of rice, big fried chicken and asam pedas!! sial la, farkin hot i tell ya
but niceeee
smhow i jz dont like the feelin being in johor, or lets jz say msia
its kinda weird
then we went on a shoppin spree
ok maebe not, i bought my slf a pair of nike jackets
one red, to go along wiv my new mp3
and one white, which suite me jz fine

then reached back spore arnd 3
rushd off to meet zee and his bros, ril and errm whats his name ar?? i read zee blog and he called him anei, wth!!
bumped into my sentosa buddies, fik and Mike at outram!!
sorie fellas, i cant join ya guys, and anyway i wasnt invited
then we lepak
and watched a free preview of the NDP
then we proceeded on to be cam whores
well
if me, ril and anei were whores
then zee muz be the mamasan
he was everywhere in the pix
yeach
muz hav infected that disease from smone

sunday was lepak day

today
in the morn called HP call center
and they threw me from one place to another
crazy fark
call here
call there
and i tink my call eventually ended up in india or smthin
cause i called the line thrice
and all three times
the operators were all indian guys!!!
one was ok, the other helped me alot, the last i totally didn uds what he was sayin!!
i was told it wld take me 4 weeks to receive the part as they order it from US
what the fark!!
after school went to sim lim
and bought it under 4 minutes and it was jz 65 bucks!!
crazy fark HP!!

okaiz
now lemme see
met up wiv her for dinner
on friday evenin
that was after i bought the mp3
it was a sudden thing, no plannin did
met her at merlion(god of all places!! cant i run from this icon??)
she was wiv her friends
i was kinda uneasy if theres people taggin along
kinda irritatin?? i dont noe
i ate
she watch me ate,
talked awhile, about alot of stuff
reali felt calm and easy wiv her
after that took a walk
and sent her home
by 9, yes 9pm no mistake abt that
this was kinda the earliest i went home on a so called i dont noe
nvr hav i gone out wiv girls and went home so early
well theres always a first

and she is realie a first for everythin
will i change for her?

well enuf wiv that
and lets see the pics that i hav uploaded
enjoy!!

2007-06-21T23:04:00.000+08:00

NOT WHAT I EXPECTED

sianz
so tired
and now i am home
i'm soooo bored
other then prison break on tv
i am not doing anything else that can realie perk me up!

sigh

lets go jamming tmw guys

what??

what did u say??

no money

sigh

ok la, tmw lepak ar

tmw morn meeting at sentosa
goin cmpb
maebe buy mp3
then go home sleep awhile
then lepak!!

hur hur hur

wat a life

well thats life bein me!
cheerz!

2007-06-20T01:43:00.000+08:00

WHAT A F**KING TIRING DAY!!

was working today
damn farkin havoc day la
i went out for work at 930am(tues mornin)
reached home at 100am(wed mornin)

tired like hell
but workin was soooooo damned fun la!!
i got alot to talk about today
hur hur hur

kkz at first as usual
i went to IOS
stuck there as always
but got mike, so chill la
i jz love doing sai kang work
i rather do smthin that will break my back
then u noe, jz wait and serve guests
so sianz

then arnd 2+ like that,
woke up late sia after lunch break
helen came in
and told me to go relief at PALAWAN!!
hmmmm y me??
sigh
ok lor,walk there,lazy to wait for express

i kinda worid, who i workin wiv
so like hoping smone ii nnoe
anddddd
it was jeffry's sister!! MELISSA!!
hahahz
and oso izzah was there
so i felt like i had sm frens there
can make it i tot
one hour relief oni ma

alot of new stuff to learn eh at PALAWAN
i realised they very independent
compared to IOS where u can rely on the IC
here they learn alot, very fast
and smore, the items there lesser compared to IOS
so like very chill la
izzah and mel were teaching me abt alot of the beach products

i realised ar

i damn paisei
when it comes to
u noe
female stuff

u noe
the

errrrr

how to put it ar

swimming thin???

ok la

bikini

*sigh*

they advised me not to be so shy ler
hahahaz
i duno lei

then i realised
izzah and the other girl was ending work soon!!
wth
then left me and mel to man the shop??
eh i pai sei lei if hv to talk to female guest abt u noe
bikini and stuff
aiyooooooo
B-I-K-I-N-I lei
i mean if got izzah, mel and the other girl
at least izzah do cashier then mel can be on the floor talking
to female guest abt the bikinis u noe

then i kena first time
the guest ask me abt the size of a top she wanted
its not a bikini la
but a kinda top for casual wearin??
i like
*gulp* hw siallllll
lucky liao la
izzah came to help
i tink the fren were all laughin at me la
izzah oso noe i very paisei sia
even mel dstrb me non stop

hur hur hur

then mel told me abt her xperiecnce
lol
funnie sia
she asked the guest wat cup size she wear
then u noe what the guest do??
she slip her top off a bit
then show her breast to mel!!!
wtfuck!!
hahahhaahhz sial la
stop it sia
then mel tell me its not nice oso
siall laaaaaaaaa MEL!!!
DONT NID TELL ME NICE ONOT CAN!!
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
i tink i kena ar
i swear i duno hw to react

then magdelene called palawan
asked smone to replace her she needed the toilet urgently
she at HUT 7
so i go lor
i scared to stay inside the PALAWAN outlet alone
magdalene tot i dont like her sia
hahahz
no wories la, i was more woried abt hw to look after hut 7 alone lei
but it seems fun u noe
was there for like half an hour??
tink magdalene stomach ache
lol

HUT 7
hut 7 is a very small shop in the mid of PALAWAN beach
hehehe
fun lei there
alone and kinda chill
i noe what the guys tink
i like there is cuz got girls in bikinis
seriously no
its not that
if i wanna see oso i can see lar
but its not abt that
i love the environment there
u work alone
feel the warmness of the sun
the cool sea breeze
and the KIDS!!
they are so playful!!
jz now gt one boy, wanna buy the water gun
he came up to me
and u noe what he called me???

UNCLE!!!

sial laaaaaaaaaaaa
do i look that old??
not the first time sia
at haagen last time oso i got kena b4
lol
hahahz
funnie sia he
my time there at hut 7
i oni did one sale
lol
gudd enuf ler

after that went back to PALAWAN
and chit chat alot wiv mel
hahahaz she fun lei
oso she let me hav a lot of opportunity to do cashering
i abit confident lei now
she teach me then also help me to pack the items
waliao got one ang moh guest
buy four goggles for u noe hw much??
92 dollars!!!!
sial la
whip out her credit card like nothin
lol

played soccer in the shop wiv a coupla kids
*sigh*
i jz love kids
they are all so cute la!!!
i throw nicely at them
they throw the ball back at me so hard!!
hahahz
the parents tell them
eh eh dont hit kor kor so hard la, he so nice play wiv u!
lol
nvm la, they havin fun is more impt

after finish at palawan
i visited OSCAR
hehehehe
met my old buddy and brudder
JEFFERY
hahahz we long time never talk sia
actuali wanted to have lunch wiv him, then i cannot la, too bz at palawan
then i hang wiv him awhile lar
he and sulaiman
hahahz
they combo jokers sialll
buey tahan ar
then jeffery did the Oscar dance, smthin like a lion dance
nah bei, super funnie la

after that
went back ios, got my stuf
and headed off to holland
meet up with another grp of frens
soccer abit wiv em
bj,les,paulie,rong2,els etc etc

play soccer awhile
headed to coffeeclub
haz workin there tonite
fuad and kak liyah oso
waliao so many frens la
hhaahaz
had lotsa fun

az oso joker
anyhow reply my sms
i sent her sms yesterday
she oni replied jz now
kaysiao

after that, the haagen ppl went off
went to chill wiv haz awhile

after that headed to haagen daz
i smhow feel a connection to the place
i can nvr uds why
long time sia
chatted wiv the staff there
and AUNTIE!!
hahahz
still talkin hokkien to me, and i talkin eng to her
funnie lar
then talked to nadira,ina(1),sharon,ruiying,got one new guy, forgot his name,
nadira kept on wanna hit my back la!
i jz injured it oie!!
basket ball
hahahaz, didn noe she junior sia
tot she older then me
lol
chit chatted wiv alot of the staff la
remeniscene the past and bitch abt the present

oh yeah met 2 famous ppl
or so called famous la
one was at sentosa, a suria channel actress, aiyer not pretty lei
and U.K Shyam
the national sprinter
at holland V

then i witnessed a fight!!
hahahz lame siall
the girl screamin at the guys to stop fighting
lame sialllll
the guys oso jz whack any how whack
nahbei
pathetic sia fight then drag the girl in
lame fellas
wanna fight, please dont do it when the girl is in between u all
police came down and all that

went to chill wiv haz and fuad and kak liyah and one of their staff
she tot i chinese sia
hur hur hur
then kak liyah and haz tell her
i gay
OIE
i aint gay la nah bei
hahahaz

after that, tot i wld go back help out the ESP
but reali tired sia
and saw UNCLE DAVID!!
hahahaz
sneak up behind him and surprised him!!
waliao eh
that guy ar
like father figure lei
he verry nice guy la
he offered to send me home
FOR FREE!!!
hahahz ok set la
we chatted in his cab otw back
i reali miss the days he send me and the rest home!!
take care la uncle!!!

EMO FEELING
hur hur hur
well today oso got emo awhile la
while i was at HUT 7
i was lost deep in thoughts
looking out at the sea
feelin the breeze
as my tots were wandering to someone or smthin
the song look what you've done by jet came driftin in from the radio
hmmm
tinking back
i tink i making a lil changes here and there eversince knowin her
nothin big or what la
not sayin i sddnly so religious or more or what
but there are smthins i am doin
i'll tell u more when u get back okayz?
she's coming back this friday
looking forward to it
lol

SO THATS IT!!!
THATS THE END OF MY DAY!!
FUN IN THE SUN, MET UP WIV OLD FRENS, MADE NEW FRENS
I CANT FEEL ANY MUCH MORE FUN THEN I CLD!!
SO I END MY POSTIN HERE THEN!!

nitez ya'all!!!

THE EMPTY SPACE IS YET TO BE FILLED

2007-06-18T11:47:00.000+08:00

WHAT AM I DOING

yeah
what am i doing?
on my day off and here i am stuck at home
duno what to do
no idea where to go
no money to spend
and
i dont know.....

feeling so restless
in other words
i am fucking bored
and when i'm fucking bored, i get fucking sleepy
and thats when i get really really fucking moody

*sigh*

hmmm
maebe i shld go out
yeah thats ryte, lemme see

hmmm

hmmm

alright, got it
i'm headed off to jog and jz work up a sweat
then i can come back home
and rest
and fall asleep
peacefully

have to go then,
have a gudd day ya'all!!

THE EMPTY SPACE IS YET TO BE FILLED

2007-06-16T22:53:00.000+08:00

ALWAYS THE SALESMAN

that was a comment from one of the guest i had today at work
and it kinda put a smile on my face
hahahz
tired is tired but u noe work is work
need the money

well alot of thins i have witnessed at work the last few days
a lady doin an impression of the merlion
she puked all over the freakin shop
not jz once
but thrice
yucks

then there was this thai family
whom i sold everythin from t-shirts to toys and other stuff
upsell crosssell
u name it
i did it with this family,
thank god they uds english, it was easier to communicate

rainnin heavily outside
well its nice to have such a cool ending to such a tiring day
didn reali had much time to rest

after work i went to buy a 6-inch cold cut trio at subway(aiza, my work colleague, she taught me to eat subway!! hahaz where is she now??)
and made my way to gym
workout a while and then headed home
fell asleep in the bus
as always i took the long route home
fell asleep for almost 20 mins
and i realised
no one even sat beside me thru out the journey!!
hahaz
funnie aint it
i fell asleep and woke up exactly in the same position

haiz reali tired
tmw mornin goin for a haircut
or shld i say, my cut my own hair
hahahz
well hope this time round it will come out smthin better
lol
smone told me abt my cutting hair
she said i cld be a hair stylist
lol
well i'm afraid i'l make ppl bald instead le

hmmm
hahaz
well i wish she wasnt so shy u noe
i duno, smtimes i find her realie shy
hahaz, well i gues i jz talk too much at times?
well thats me
hmmm
its been two days now
many more days to go
and now zee has to tell me the UK is floodin
wonder how she is doin?
well i aint no superhero that can fly over to check thins out
but i do believe in one thing
i leave thins to fate, if thins are supposed to turn it my way
it will be
i change it if i want to
and in this case,i cant do anythin from miles away
well i'll jz keep myslf preoccupied wiv other stuff then

this one me khair and erwin chilling out at town and vivo
and the ended with a bad taste in my mouth, yeach spoiler of the year
anyway the guys cheered me up!
enjoy the pics!

2007-06-15T14:40:00.000+08:00

AT WORK

some ppl, juz want to see me update my blog
grrrrrrrrrr!!!

well dont they noe i've been so freakin busy??
hahahaz

zee u jackass, why dont u go entertain ur ehem*cough cough* instead of bothering me
and can you guys please stop using my blog as sm kinda redlight district thin??
if u need sm loving please either head to orchard towers or smthin
this is not the place to bre
the words, biatch, horny, hotel room, and all that are not supposed to be found
on MY BLOG!!

lol

ok maebe i dont mind it appearin, but its realie funnie to c all of my buddies chat
its been almost a week now since i even hung with them.
and my two bros, k and that gay erwin, ciao to berkelah in pahang

and here i am fuckin stuck at the island
the resort island of sentosa
yeah i noe sentosa is a great place to be
great place to chill in the sun
not stuck in shop!!
hahahz
kinda sianz le now on my lunch break
oni 15 mins left, and am sooooo sleepy
yesterday worked from 930am(thursday) till 230 am(friday) the next day
hahahz, more on that later when i go back home and blog

this posting is done to satisfy all those ppl who wanna noe abt my life
during this holiday period
trust me, u dont want to be doin what i am doin cuz it sux

anywayz catch me arnd the island
call me if ur at IMBIAH LOOKOUT!!
best wishes to all and enjoy the holidays!!

p.s: wondering if i'm missin her?? lol well its only the first day away.......

MY LIFE LOVIN IT!

2007-06-08T19:11:00.000+08:00

THE PAST 8 WEEKS IN PICTURES

ANNNNDDDDDDDD........

FREELANCE MODELLING FEATURING GUYS FROM SHOCKW4VE
sorie we kinda missing our most shuai model and accordin to zee the sound man behind
the scene backstage, andy ng 'sikit', was bz in studio with his 'ehem'

IF YOU WANA SKIP MY BLOG POST AND JUST LOOK AT THE FASHION CATALOUGE JZ SCROLL ALL THE WAY TILL YOU SEE FASHION FOR SUMMER'07!!

hmm well lemme start off wiv my day before we go to the highlights

0900-1200
met the others
TIRED and SLEEPY
not in the best of MOODS

presentation in the mornin was fine i gues
freddie had a prblm wiv us
started to shoot us wiv reasons that didn make any sense
zee had a hard time DEFENDING our work
doin his BEST there
the whole class was like in silence
listenin to the exchanges goin infront
zee managed to SHUT HIM UP eventually

but he spoke up agn abt other unrelevant stuff
sis signalled to me to smile and calm down
i had enuf of his BULLSHIT
when he wanted to comment abt the sections and elevations part, I STEPPED IN
EXPLAINING to him in the most simple of words
and the most DEATH-LIKE STARE i cld conjure
i tink smhw
smhw i tink i made him SHUT UP AS WELL or smthin
i duno
cuz that was the last time he even critic our work
after that he smhow TRIED to PRAISE us
and i kinda made smthin up abt the printers gettin our colors wrong for the board
hahahaz
cant believe i made that up
tink i should write a book about making up stories or smthing
leonard suprisingly made gudd comments, zai too
its weird the bad ones become the gudd ones and vice versa

after friday prayers(thats a shocker ryte?)
went separate ways wiv the fellas
went to gym
made a new fren there
e fella joked wiv me abt me being bigger then him
and i wld end up bullyin him
when he was like 3x my size
damn, i hate makin frens at gym when they are so far bigger then me
funnie guy thou, so what the heck
sm of my frens oredie gone, make new ones la
simple

and now
ladiesssss and gentlemennnnn

PRESENTING POLY LIFE IN PICTURES!!

took a sample of my nose stuff for some human diseases experiment
this proves that i am HEALTHY, no blue color stuff on my plate

another plate showing another test result

proving that it is my sample

zee's sample, i not sure abt him, mite have sm kinda VIRUL FUNGAL GROWTH smwhere in there
hahahaz, kiddin

our project work

one of four boards,all our work compiled in, zee spent a whole nite without sleepin puttin in the final
pieces of the jigsaw puzzle. zee has the other files, i'll add later on

a part of the board, put tghtr by haz

MODEL MAKING

the 3 nights me, haz, fuad and andy spent at andy's house(MORE LIKE HIS CORRIDOR ON THE 14TH FLOOR) doing the model

tink by now the neighbours noe us as the crazy nuts sittin outside making a miniture garden
and we even made frens wiv a brother of one of our ministers, MR Mah Bow Tan(is tis right?), who lives there!
freindly guy!

fuad did the buildings and the hardscape part(THE GAZEBO IS AMAZING, BUT TOO BAD ABT THE TRELLIS EH? HAHAZ)
me and andy did the plants and trees(WE DID A GOOD JOB WITH THE TREES EH? HAHAZ)
haz and zee did the walkways and the wall climber part
and here's the result

an aerial view of the site

the gazebo in sight

another aerial view

another aerial view wiv my toes in it

view from the Emergency Vehicle Access(EVA) and fuad's toes

prove of we doin the model at the corridor

fig1
fig2
in fig1 i did this area while guarding andy's house(STILL SITTING OUTSIDE THE CORRIDOR WITH THE NEIGHBOURS WALKING PAST AND STARING AT ME!!) when the rest when for dinner
-the sand pit area containin the sanseviera trifasciata
-and planted the trees in place
-oh and fig2 u can see the pebble river me and andy dug out

my bucida molinetti

from this view the gazebo(accordin to fuad like spider man symbol from the top)
oh and u can see my bambusa oldhamii beside it, hahahz making that was funnie idea
out of the blue

DAY OF SUBMISSION
miss teck took our pix usin her handphone!!! i dont noe her well, but she is fun sial!
more understanding and happening lecturer then the other lecturers put tghtr!
can joke wiv her like fren i tell ya!

FIRST ROUND OF PRESENTATIONS

fell asleep on the chair, and the girls and andy took a pic of me

AND FINALLY
THE PICTURES THAT EVERYONE HAS BEEN WAITING FOR

FEATURING THE FASHION CATALOGUE FOR SUMMER'07

DIFFERENT CONCEPTS FROM ALL THE DIFFERENT GUYS IN THE BAND
(except andy, who sadly cant make the photoshoot due to busy schedule, hahaz, kiddin andy)

I GIVE YA 'SHOCKW4VE'!!!

FASHION FOR SUMMER'07

riduan-not a major player of the band, jz sing when the kind of music he likes plays
going for the simple clean look
white LURE shirt wiv zara shirt inside wiv black straight cut jeans from LEE
watch from bugis, and handphone motorola z3

hazwan-drummer, always wanna rock and can be crazy at times
mafia look
wiv black shirt and dark grey jeans
hanphone W880i from sony ericsson

fahmi-lead guitarist, mood differs at different times
good guy type look
white long sleeve shirt on the inside, black vest outside straight cut blue jeans wiv
superman belt buckle
handphone nokia super old school model and rides a bike to school when need to

fuad-bassist attached and always easy goin
goin for the mod look
fender black shirt wiv brown pants and blue Vans shoes
handphone sony ericsson something and adidas watch from johor

HAIR STYLES TO GO ALONG WITH THE ATTIRE

fuad goin for the curly hair look

haz goin for the full hair pullback style, 'mafia-look' accordin to hui ngee and winnie

zee spikes the front up and goes for the reali smart-innocent-guy-with-a-rocker-soul look

myself with a new hair style for me! cut my own hair yesterday

ACCESSORIES TO GO ALONG

oh yeah, i love this pair of shoes!! they're mine in black and shiny too!!

ciggie, cant go without one!! oh yeah, the pic wiv zee in it not him smoking ar, just a prop!!
so girls, pls dont tink he smokes!! he doesnt, the rest does!!

INDIVUDUAL OR IN A GROUP

what is he thinking of i wonder,hmmmm

fuad doing the classic bikini by the beach pose, but without a bikini on

THE UNDERWEAR SHOOT

everyone ready to go into the birthday suit, but in the end canceled

haz showin off

For Your Info we were all wearin boxers, haz-hardy1, zee-byford, me-tommy hilfiger, fuad-??

AND THE BLOOPERS AND BLUNDERS

haz pole dancing

i literally wanna go into the advert

fuad stomachache, hahahz jz kiddin.

OVERALL THE PHOTOSHOOT WAS A SUCCESS!!
all had fun doin it
althou in the swealtering heat of the tropical weather in singapore, we did it

wait for the SPRING COLLECTION COMING UP IN THE NEXT FEW MONTHS YEAH!!

hope u all enjoy this posting!! catch ya all arnd!!

2007-06-06T19:56:00.005+08:00

A DAY ON THE ISLAND

0630am:
*star wars theme song* fone alarm rings and stirs me up from bed
presses snooze button

0715am:
presses snooze button for the 7th time
goes back to sleep

0730am:
mom is home from work
knocks on door
mom: "wan, cakap nak sampai kat keje 0830, ni da 0730"
me: "arh nanti ar, keje sebelah pintu jer.....z.z.z.z."

0745am:
stirs from sleep
FUCKIN HELL
shit gonna be late
have at least 15 minutes to get ready
jumps off the floor, grabs a towel and jumps in and out of the toilet under 10 mins
me: "*screaming from toilet* mak!! baju keje lom gosok ar!! tolong sikit!!"

0800am:
struggling at the door to wear my shoes
mom: " da bawak lom pass nak masok sentosa?"
me: "argghh! lupe pulak!!"
throws my shoe out the door, run into my room get the pass
and one hand grabs my bag, one hand grabs my shoes, mouth grabs the plastic bag carryin a
packet of nasi lemak my mom bought but i didn have the time to eat
oh shit
throw my shoe into the lift
turns around
kiss me mom bye2 race back in
got 9 floors to wear my shoe

0810am:
at bus stop waitin for bus
where the fuck is it?

0820am:
reach vivo under 5 mins(its jz 2 busstops away duh)
jz in time to get on the express into sentosa

0830am:
reaches Images Of Singapore
what the fuck
no ones there, except the auntie who cleans the area
and a stray peacock
hmmmm did opening time change?

0840am:
after 10 mins of lying down on the bench msgs helen
helen: mike is opening today, tinks he is late
darn

0845am:
kenji calls me
kenji: "wan, once mike reach, call me"

0900am:
fell asleep on the bench
hears noise at the door
jumps up
saw jimmy and kenji openin the store

0930am:
mike arrives finally
hahaz
woke up late and didn bath(oops, sorie mike)
brings shaver along to shave

1000am:
doing replenishing
a pretty korean lady walks in
lol
jz continue doin my work

1205pm:
helps mike do some paperwork sorting

1245pm:
doing paperwork in office
hungry and sleepy
yan pei: "wan, why dont u eat first, later kenji come back u cannot eat in office"
she's right
puts the paperwork on table and sits further inside the store room to eat

1300pm:
wipes away the sambal stain on my shirt
i jz love that nasi lemak
goes to cable car station to buy drinks
hmmm imbiah lookout seems to be kinda bz
cant believe people wanna take that LUGE thin, its so,
i dunoe
i rather cycle

1315pm:
goes behind IOS carpark
and sits at a curb
whips out a ciggie
stupid driver almost killed me while reversing
stared into the distant sea, cool wind breeze, tots wonder

1330pm:
back in store, falls asleep

1400pm:
crap, woke up late
clear my messy hair
start sorting out the transfer in, out and duno what sales thing

1530pm:
talked to jam
talked to yan pei
talked to a local driver abt sentosa new attractions
talked to guests
growing tired of talking

1600pm:
japanese customers are kinda cute today
kawaii as they say

1630pm:
imbiah challenge starts
guests running into our store looking for items

1645pm:
mike discovers that our earlier packing for the guests were wrong
hahaz

1700pm:
kenji talks to me abt MSP
Mystery Shopper Programme(i tink)
gives me and old school 555 mini booklet
smthin abt sm new idea abt pushing sales

1715-1720pm:
talked to jeff, he was on the phone reporting sales
hahaz asked how he was doing
an old friend, from haagen now to sentosa
bz unpacking 3'inch merlion fig

1730pm:
yes! finally time to go home!
hahaz
delayed abit
helping yan pei and jam do visual merchandising

1810pm:
caught express out to mainland singapore
hmmm, that malay girl from transport
she's easy on the eyes

1845pm:
reaches home
had dinner wiv bro
ate apples for the first time in a long time

1930pm:
in my room blogging

2040pm:
posted my post

2040 onwards:
no idea

gtg
nitez ya'all!

THE EMPTY SPACE IS YET TO BE FILLED

2007-06-06T19:56:00.003+08:00

A DAY ON THE ISLAND

2007-06-06T19:56:00.001+08:00

A DAY ON THE ISLAND

2007-06-03T00:24:00.000+08:00

THE WHAT IFS IN MY LIFE

just came home from doing project
reali kinda tired
i guess
i duno, have been tired for the past few days
and the flu bug bit me
when i reached there aroun 1430
i fell asleep on the bench under andy's block
not lying down,
but sitting up right
yeah seriously, smore the place very windy
waited fer the rest to come

in the evenin, when haz came
had another prblom to do

FUCKIN MATHS SOLVING

cant believe
we were sitting outside the corridor on the 14th floor
screaming at each other
numbers and distances, discussin abt how to solve the stupid thing
PLANT PLAN
bloody piece of crap math work
never in my the past 2 years of my life have i calculated so many things within a day
eversince i stopped doin math 2 years ago
i have never picked up the math book
and jz now, me and haz were cracking our brains doin it
even simple calculation of 3 x 3, haz had a prblm solvin it
hahahaz
jackass

THE WHAT IFS IN MY LIFE

was in the bus on my way back juz now
tired and was in daze
plugged into my mp3
slow music playing in my head
and i realised
that i was all alone in the bus
for once
i felt so
i dont know
is the word alone i gues?
i felt left out
i felt like the world had gone on without me

i then drifted into thoughts,
what if,
what if 18 years of my life
i made a mistake smwhere, when it comes to deciding to do something?

what if...
my 2 elder bros, had survived their pregnancy period
would i still be here?
would they have been better sons?
would they have succeeded in life and made my parents prouder then i have done thus far?

what if...
i had not punch that guy till he bleed?
would he had been my freind?
has he forgiven me?

what if...
i had pick a diff choice of secondary school?
would i have met the guys i still call brothers?

what if...
i had i was caught by the authorities, while i was at the wrong place at the wrong time doing the wrong things that i did?
would i have ended up smwhere else other then home?

what if...
i had studied harder and focused on my Os,
would i hav been smwhere other then here?
would i be able to be in the band with the guys?

what if...
i had jumped out of that tackle?
would i have been able to walk and stand easier now?

what if...
the medics did not notice i was suffering from the severe heat stroke and dehydration?
would i have died there and then in an army uniform?

what if...
i had ignored that first msg?
i would not have done what i did.
i would not have wasted my time on her.
i might even have found someone else better then her.

all these
might have made me a diff person then i am now
what if.....i will never know.

THE EMPTY SPACE IS YET TO BE FILLED

2007-06-01T01:44:00.000+08:00

NON-STOP SCHOOL WORK

met up wiv the fellas
to do our project work
usually this wld seem to be ok

after all nid to do our school work what

but whats amazing is that
we met up

ON A FREAKING PUBLIC HOLIDAY

when others relaxing at home
my parents and bro went out shoppin and eatin

me and my fellas
and also all my other frens in studio
we all hav to do our work
and rush thru our stuff
eatin oso no time
slep very lil

tempers flaring
emotions goin out of control

i dont know
i find smthins the lecturers do durin our tutorial as a FUCKING waste of precious time

-we have lecture in the morning
-after lecture, given assignment to do
or
complete certain stuff we hav to show to em
-aftrnoon we have to pin up our stuff and present
thats not the bad part
the bad part comes when they talk, critic, talk to themselves and just nag and yak and talking like they are the world famous desginer!

and one of my lect, she jz cant shut the fuck up

ZAI THE DESIGNER OF HEAVEN GARDENS!

hello, ur not
wake up your idea please?
yes, ur a lecturer wiv experience
but
i dont see ur name in magazines
i dont see ur name being talk about in news
i dont see ur design work in the public spaces
the only thin she noes is to yak and complain and critic

yes u can draw and come up with sm nice designs
u hav the talent
but we are trying to come up with nice designs as well
some ppl in my class
they are reali talented
they draw like they drink water
a simple chore to do
but even they kena critic
i tink sooner or later
these talented grp of ppl wld eventually feel demoralized as well
if the strong ppl give up
what abt those tryin to keep up?

please balance critics wiv praises
we learn from our mistakes of ur criticism, we improve wiv confidence of praises
guide us to do our work, not jz say we are wrong here, there everywhere
we are students
you are a lecturer
our job is to learn
ur job is to teach
not to make us look stupid

I AM TRYIN TO IMPROVE YA CRAZY YAPPING BITCH

and my ears are bleeding
my ear drums exploded
my brain is damaged due to constant exposure to her DEADLY SOUNDWAVES

GOD

WHAT DEADLY SIN HAVE I DONE,
TO DESERVE THIS,

HARBRINGER OF DOOM, DESTROYER OF MAN, MOTHER NATURE'S EVIL TWIN SISTER?????

SAVE ME FROM THIS PLEASE!

ARGGGGGGHHHHHHH!

anyway, gtg

nitez ya'all

THE EMPTY SPACE IS YET TO BE FILLED

WIFE OF

2007-05-28T23:51:00.000+08:00

MUDDLE OF PUDD

Extreme Makeover: Internal Organ Edition

Dear Extreme Makeover,
i dont need plastic surgery to improve my looks, cause i'm happy with what i have
seriously, i am happy with my looks, and i dont request for anythin better
and definately, i dont need any silicon implants anywhere

i have a different request to make, somethin i doubt you have ever done before
and it will push the boundaries of science, medicine, humanity,
and
also reality tv ratings and profits made

okaiz this is my current self

-i have a dysfunctional brain
that spouts nonsense and i am unable to talk properly
i stutter when i talk
i mixed the first letters of the word that i am about to say
i cant seem to control my hands as they tremble all the time(probably parkinsons)

-i need a new knee(right side only)
i cant seem to stand for a long time nowadays
seem to make me less mobile and unable to walk around
and when i bend down, it cracks like a broken twig

-i need a new ankle(left side for now)
it hurts so much
i limp when i walk
but i try to hide it so as not to look as if i'm handicapped

-i need a new right eye
my right eye is severely blinded by now
i'm losing my sight in that eye
i noe theres lasik surgery
but i tot by goin for an eye transplant, it will be a medical breakthrough!
unless of course it has been done before

oh and if you guys have enough budget left
i wanna request one more part to complete my internal organ makeover

-please buy me a new heart
cause i lost mine and now i am without a heart and i feel so cold
i need a heart
to learn to love again

i need spare parts for my body

hope you can put me on your show!

rest begards
rid-

p.s: opps spelling error there!

nitez ya'all

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2007-05-27T22:34:00.000+08:00

YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH ME?

you know
when you look at that particular guy
and you feel like he deserves a pop on the face?
yeah i was in that kinda mood today

was with my family at vivo in the late aftrn
they wanted to watch Pirates Of the Carribeaen
i was rather in the mood to sleep
but jz tagged along you noe
head was spinning and twisted my darn ankle the day b4
tot it wld be better this mornin when i wake up
but it got worst

was on the escalator up to Golden V at vivo
and there was this grp of fellas on the opposite side of the escalator goin down
no fuckin idea if he was my age or what
but yeah dont reali giv a damned
they were laughin like smkinda girls or smthin
their laughter reali kinda pissed the living shit outta me
if u laugh like bitches then ur better off
SHUTTING THE FUCK UP
and this aint ur father's mall to laugh like u own it
and i aint in the mood for noisy laughin shit and stuff
WANNA LAUGH LIKE MONKEYS? JOIN THE FREAKIN CIRCUS

so yeah ,stared at em
the rest werent reali givin me a damn i gues
but there was this one particular punk, who caught me staring
tink he owns the world to be staring at me like that?
hell i aint gona turn away first punk
..."why dont we go outside and settle this boy?"...was thinking in my head
tink my mom caught me or smthin
she talked to me to pull my attention away
and so i did look away
but the last i saw of him, he was still staring at me
but yeah hv to tink of my family well being first
gota keep that in mind

hey i aint afraid of no punk shit man
i have told off strangers before
purposely bang shoulder to shoulder at guys who purposely do not want to give way
hell i can stand on my own two feet now
without having to worie abt beiing imposed on by others
one thing abt this punks, they only hav the guts to stare and find trouble when they're in grps
how about ur alone?
wanna stare smore? step up to the plate and lets square off boy.
if not, put ur hair down, ur attitude down, and ur freakin ego down.

punks, hmph
gota get a life

nitez ya'all

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2007-05-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

I AM IN LOVE........NOT!

Serendipity is the effect by which one accidentally discovers something fortunate, especially while looking for something else entirely.

Do you believe in SERENEDIPITY?
after yesterday,
hmmmmmmm
i gues i do
a bit of faith wont hurt i gues
lol

after leavin haz and crossing over to the opposite side of Dover MRT
was in my usual mood after comin back from campus
pissed, moody, not in the mood to smile
not even at a cute girl
walked down the escalator
and turned arnd to face the main road
thats when i notice the back of a girl sittin down

usually if i'm in a gudd mood
a girl tat slim wiv a nice figure
i wld eye her from the back

but i wasnt in the mood so yeah
didn bother

she turned arnd and look at me
IN THE EYE
i looked back, and jz turned my gaze away(NOT IN THE MOOD RMBMR!)
then a tot struck me
..."she look very familiar"...
and i felt her gaze still on me
so i looked at her agn, OUR EYES MET
and she smiled at me
on my part, i felt 10 MILLION VOLTS RAN THRU ME

OH MY GOD!!
it was her
thats wen i realised it was her
YES ITS HER
after so long gone
i tot we wld never meet agn
after all, we never did reali know one another

FLASHBACK TO LAST YEAR
this was before i met the last girl i dated for awhile
first saw her at the gym
supposed to meet haz there, and i was walkin past the machines
she was there, plugged into her mp3
we gazed but nothin more
me and haz were checkin her out thou, wen she was on the treadmill
but it was onli a while la, we were too bz doin our stuff

the next time round,i came alone
didn c her thou
was bz doin my thin
was doin the weight when she stroll into my sights
gazed at each other and she hop onto the treadmill
infront of me
..."this aint gona be gudd"...said to myself
and she started to walk
her back facing me
then slowly she started to jog
..."god, i cant work out like this, too much a distraction"...so i walked away
somehw thru out the session we kept bumpin into one anthr
and we did gazed thru glass, she was on one side, and i was on the other
sigh
had to find a way to make contact i gues
so i went to hav a drink and grabbed a newspaper
sat 2 tables away from her
her pink motorola realie captured my attention
so i read the papers a while
and looked up from my papers
once, nothin
twice, nothin
so i kept on readin
felt a gaze on me
so i look up for one last time
and there she was! lookin at me
our first smile!

BACK TO THE PRESENT(THAT WHY THEY CALLED IT THE GIFT)

sigh yeah
its the gym chick

after the short exchange of smiles
i jz looked away la, didn like wanna, u noe stare at her
and she plugged in her mp3
i kept my cool For Your Info
then the person sittin bside her stood up and boarded the bus

hmmmm....."shld i or shldnt i??"
"sit down beside her and see what happens?? or stand here and never know wat i missd out?"

i did the unthinkable
i walked slowly
and plopped down
beside her
i also act kaysiao la, take out my mp3
jz as i was abt to plugged in
..."you go to ******* ***** gym as well right?"...
i was in disbelief!
QUOTING THE SONG THROUGH GLASS...
"...OH GOD IT FEELS LIKE FOREVER..."

talking in my best english possible
i replied "yeah i did, you too right? thats how we met."
and so we began a conversation that
I FELT LIKE IT LASTED FOR HOURS
talked abt casual stuff
this and that
we talked abt frens we had in common
but i realised that we didn noe each others name
AND WE EXCHANGED NAMES AS WELL!!
hmm hahahaz
yeah we talked alot
even about the new drink called WHATEVER and ANYTHING!!
i gues there was a connection

THE SAD TWIST....

but all gudd dreams hav to come to an end
i hav to snap back to reality u noe

i had known all along
that she was attached
saw her and her bf at vivo, while i was waitin for the one girl that never came to be
to end her work,
we exchanged smiles, her bf never caught that moment
dont say that i was eyein anthr girl while i was waitin fer anthr girl
it was an innocent exchange of smiles
she was with her bf
and i was waitin fer that someone, who has left me waitin till now

the gym chick
even if we can never be more then frens
at least we are frens as of now
from casual gazes
to sweet but awkward smiles
and to now
friends

thats more than i can ever ask for
at the very least, i wasnt kept waiting
thats more than enough for me

nitez ya'all!

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2007-05-23T23:39:00.000+08:00

DO YOU KNOW ME?

was jz walking home this evenin
arnd 8+ maybe? chatted wiv haz and ril, zee's gudd buddy awhile
in my usual mood comin back from campus
tired, moody, sleepy
hmm lets jz say even a cute girl sat down beside me
couldnt perk me up
plugged into my mp3 listenin to 'Faint'

its been what?
months?
since i last look up into the night sky?
used to love, to look up into the heavens
see the stars
but lately, haven had the time to do it
its been months since i last stepped on Mt.Faber
gues, i havent had the time, and
somethins in my head
i haven managed to settle yet to go back up there

the sky was clear,
althou our skies are highly polluted by light
caught a glimpse of stars, our moon
and even
our neighbour, mars
changed into my shorts and my faithful yellow flip flops
and jz went out for a short walk after that
to clear my mind, calm myself
and jz sit on the deck and look back on
memories of this place, the only ones i have here are sweet ones,
i love this place, i really do.....

was wondering, do you, my visitors to this blog know

me well enuf? so here's some WANHUNDREDandWAN info that i gues, wld interest ya all

1) full name: mohamad riduan ghazali

2) born 09/05/1989 at approx. 5 in the morn, 3 days after Hari Raya Puasa

3) Alexandra hospital welcomed me into this world

5) height 1.67 weight 53-55 kg(as of last check up)

6) Al-Amin Pre-school,

Achievements:

-a lifelong friend, she goes by the name of cbits here on my blog

- had my first fight, and beat till he bled. Victims name? Adam

7)Jagoh Pri(4 years) achievements:

- was a part of the '98 sepak takraw team. 2nd place.

- had my first taste in competitive soccer. 2nd place 6 goals

- malay dance and english drama club. acted in our school's last performance, The Wizard Of Oz, as the Enchanted Forest(small part hehehe)

- Favourite Teacher: Mrs Procter(Social Studies)

8) Blangah Rise Pri(2 years)

achievements:

- had a thing for gymnastic classes

-EM2 student taking Higher Malay exams and exceling

- Choir boy, only one out of 3 guys.

- Favourite Teacher: Cikgu Mas(Malay Lang.)

9)Gan Eng Seng Sec(4 years)
Achievments:

- 1st Sgt, PTI, Chief RP, Part B NCO

- Bronze Service Award(NCC)

- Silver Service Award(NCC)

- Most Improved Cadet(NCC-Leadership course)

- Among Most frequent visitor to Discipline Master's Office

- Lead a team to 3rd place in Malay Scrabble Competition

- Fav teacher: Mr Mui(DM) Cikgu Norliza(Malay Lang.) Mdm Seto(D&T)

10) Singapore Polytechnic School Of Built Environment Diploma In Landscape Architecture

11) Biggest Fear? Cockroaches

12) Most embarrasing moment? Stood for 5 minutes infront of a crowd without saying a word

13) Hate Having Breakfast Alone

14) Love to have breakfast with my mom or the girl i love

15) Manchester United Fan

16) My jersey no. is 7

17) Biggest dream? to play in the Theatre Of Dreams

18) Hobby? Scoring goals for fun.

19) A big Star Wars fan.

20) Secretly calling myself Obi-Riduan-Kenobi, after my fav character, Obi Wan Kenobi hehehe

21) Room in a constant mess

22) Right side eye short sighted at 300 degrees

23) Left side eye long sighted, but almost perfect vision

24) I hate Matreps, Emos

25) Place to go when sad? Mt.Faber

26) Among fav place to go? Borders bookstore

27) Singing while bathing

28) Take the longer bus route and sleep in the ride

29) walking and humming to myself

30) was in religious choir, or nasyid for almost 8 years

31) clumsy

32) forgetful

33) i have a weakness for cute girls

34) an eye for chinese girls, smtimes onli(SOMETIMES) malay girls

35) used to be a pro in chess, beat everyone in pri and sec school

36) love to tease my bro

38) i love kids, especially babies and toddlers

39) breaks my heart, when i see a baby cry or the girl i love cry

40) hot tempered

41) foul mouthed

42) fav place to meet up wiv old frens, lau pa sat

43) had my first proper bday celebration among frens this year

44) firx m18 movie 28 weeks later

45) almost died of dehydration and heat exhaustion 3 years ago

46) fell seriously in love thrice

47) i cant swim for nutz

48) first time i cycle on two wheels, i destroyed a metal dustbin at east coast

49) love to shop alone

50) i love to drink chrysanthemum tea and Voda Voda water.

the next 50 will be next time, when i have the time kkz...

kinda tired

need sm shut eye i gues

gtg now

nitez ya'all!

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2007-05-22T23:46:00.000+08:00

I AM MISSING SOMETHING OR SOMEONE

spend the whole of yesterday
doin adobe
my eyes nearly popped out
my sleep was interupted at 8
in the mornin
zee gav me assignment
well the hardscape i uds

but

softscape, sigh, had to research
on the conditions and
also the pictures fer it

went back to sleep till 10 i tink?
then worked till my laptop
was so hot and it blacked out a coupla times
thank god i managed to safe my hardscape
but sadly i had to redo my softscape fer
at least 5 times
grrrrrrrrr,
sorie zee and haz, thats y i took so long to complete

met chris and lokping on sunday
was kinda sick actuali
thats y i called in to IOS to say i cldnt work
but lokping wanted to talk abt smthin
so okaiz, i didnt mind
ate lunch at NYDC
and talked abt his problem
well tink thru and decide orite?

then helped chris abit wiv his school work
had to make a blog site fer him
then we chilled at a place called SETTLERS
a board game shop cum eatin place
not bad! kinda enjoyed the BANG! game
hahahaz joker sial
oso played scrabble
and i won both games!!
YES!! I'M THE LORD OF THE GAMES!!
lol

soocer this evenin
wiv sm of the haagen crew
paul asked me to join them
so yeah
its been awhile since i met that fella
started out okaiz
didn reali perform
after so long, felt rusted
then my knee oso, sial la, pain sial
then started to play it up a bit
stepovers that i've been practicing at home
this and that
scored 3 i tink, and created some
okaiz la, all in a days work

sigh my bro gonna be at camp fer the next
3 days
no one to dstrb at home
saded

i feel i duno
i feel like i'm missing smthin
or someone
i feel kinda lost at times, i duno
need to gain control of my emotions

gtg then, tmw meetin the guys at school
at 830am
saded sial
kkz la, hv to go
ciao

nitez ya'all~

Missing Something or Someone

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2007-05-20T01:24:00.000+08:00

TIRED

and kinda fuck up
failed to win the FA Cup
damned it

just came home,
from zee's lil bro bday party
at east coast chalet
gosh, he has such a big supportin family
and he's a caring elder bro as far as i can c
planning all that stuff
finally i got to eat his mum's fried kway tiao
it's delicious
haz, when will i get to eat ur mum's cheese popiah agn?
lol

recently haz advised me
not to be in a hurry to get my licence
and also not to be in a hurry to get a bike
wonder if he's right
i'm oredie schooling, workin oso no time,
still hav to giv time here and there for my frens
how the hell am i gona go get a freakin licence
sigh

we also jz talk abt travelling the world jz now
he asked me abt wanting to migrate in the future
we do share the same thought on this thou
i dreamed of settlin in new zealand
sm where near the coast
a cliff overlookin the ocean
he wanted to settle in new zealand as well
but wanted smwhere where there were mountains and fields

i duno
i rather not migrate, what i wanted
was to travel the world
i've dreamed of this for a long long time
i've dreamt of traveling in europe
not high class travelling
but simple backpacking maebe on a bike
what a way to travel
start of with a small amount of money
live as simply as i can
when i run out of cash, take a pit stop
and earn bit of cash by doin simple work, here and there
i wanna c Portugal in the summer, then go thru Spain, head to sunny Monaco
and travel thru to c ancient Rome and maebe, see the windmills in Holland
sigh
will i ever live that long to live my dreams? i wonder....

seems everyone has something to advise me abt
am i reali in need of advises as of now?
i duno, i reali dont

sigh, i'm growing frail
i gues
the other day, was at haagen
met kak and chatted wiv her after such a long time
ohz kak yani i mean
i find her as nice as ever, still able to communicate wiv her
its been awhile since we worked tghtr eh kak?
kinda miss the days
she was a strict but smtimes fun boss to work under

but one thin i respect abt her
is she takes notice of small things
smthin was taking its toll on me
what i was afraid was happening to me
smthin that no one else had noticed before
kak yani: "wah wan, u look thinner ar, ur losing weight? what happen?"

i duno, tired i gues, alot of thins runnin thru my head
alot of thins, too many kak,
thanx for noticin

asking myself
should i talk to her more?
should i or shouldnt i?
i dont know
a constant battle running thru my head

workin tmw
need to go now
have to get sm shut eye
have a great sunday mornin, unlike me

nitez ya'all~

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2007-05-18T00:45:00.000+08:00

WHERE DO I GO FROM HERE?

had a tiring day
may i dare to say??
i duno, smtimes i tink i jz dont work hard enuf
or work well enuf??
i duno, and i dont dare to say my contribution
to the grp is more then i can giv
adobe, i claim to b able to master it
and yet i was still kinda slow
fuck
i've been doodling in my sketchpad
but so far the eyelevel thin is messing up my mind
well, workin hard is never hard enuf,
or so that bitch in my class said

i wasnt in the mood today
not in the kind that i want that is
all i want is to be happie and cheerful
24-7 u noe
but still cannot
sigh. mind wandering, body aching, heart empty, soul lost
gosh
feel like a dead man

i tink my lecturer is smtimes too much
she yaks and yaks non stop
hellooo pls dont be a bitch can or not
my ear bleeding from ur crapping

there's a saying
talk too lil, no one will uds
talk too much and no one listens
so talk moderately, so that everyone will get what ur tryin to preach

i feel very very irritated by her non-stop bitching abt everyones work
not all of us were born Landscape Architects like her
maebe i shld hav jz defered from this u noe,
retake my Os math and science?
then try agn fer mass comm??
i duno, i made my choice
no turning back

well jz read zee's blog
at least he's turning back to God
look at me, i'm still lost smwhere
in between heaven and earth
i've lost faith
i've lost my beliefs
i dont even noe what i've become
i've become no more then a walking body without a soul
i dunno
i gues i lost it
i lost it a long time ago
i lost it the day i, well smthins are better left unsaid

kinda sick of all this
girl stuff u noe
zee and haz has been teasin me non stop
i dont mind the teasin cause its jz a friendly banter
but, uds me guys, i say doesnt mean i mean it
i jz joke abt it

theres this girl, a year 1
and if its not her, its another girl in my year
i admit, both attracted my attention smhow
the girl who is in my year, i did have a teeny weeny crush way back then
jz a tiny one, nothin more, thats y u c smtimes i treat her nicely
and the year 1 girl,
seems to be a nice girl, noes hw to look after herself
and doesnt seem to be the kind to attract attention

but both also,
i duno, dont reali interest me as much as of now
and honestly, i'm in a declining period
not interested in lookin for relationship as of now

a neighbour of mine, who watch me grow up thru the years
asked me the other day
auntie: "wah boy, now u young man oredie ar, sooo how? got girlfren not??"
rid: hie auntie, no la what young man, still a kid at heart, girlfren?? hahahz cannot ler
i no money to support myself, hw to hav girlfren??
auntie: "aiyo boy, u always look smart, nvr messy, and i noe u got temper, but u hav a nice heart, girl not always lookin fer money, smtimes they look fer the heart too u noe"

sigh, i wish it was that ez auntie
onli a handful of ppl noes what kinda person i am
the rest jz tink of me as a pain in the neck
so who am i, to even wanna go fer either the 2 girls?

until i find my self confidence,
until i find God and my faith again
until i am more matured
i dont tink i'm readie enuf

well i'm turnin in now
realie tired
slept from 7 till 12
now goin back to my bed
sweetdreamz to all
hope this wont be my last post
hope that i wake up from this deep sleep
hahahz
smtimes, i tink too much

nitez ya'all~

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2007-05-14T00:19:00.000+08:00

I NEED MORE TIME

i'm slowly running out of time
yeah thats right
time is against me
and also money
i am slowly running out of money
and energy
and life

i am running out of everything
it seems
the only thin i'm not running out of
is stress
its comin every second i'm breathing
i am my own enemy

losing my patience easily again
losing my temper
in other words i'm losing it
i'm afraid this time round
people are gonna get hurt,
physically or mentally wound them
why
why i am in the midst of all this

some how
emotions and thoughts
they're slowly influencing me
making decisions for me
they're taking the reins of life from my hands
i am losing control

i have to stop this
dont let my thoughts
and emotions
run me down.
i control my own fate, and i will decide my own fate
whether its gudd or bad, hell its my life
i love it

cheerz~

2007-05-11T22:53:00.000+08:00

28 WEEKS LATER

what a movie
i would love to recommend this movie
its so freakin cool but one has to able to
stomach the amount of violence and
gore in the movie. but yeah, i felt the
movie reali reali is one of the best in this
month.

AND BEST OF ALL, ITS MY FIRST M18 MOVIE!!!
watched it wiv my buddy haz and his fren nana.

hmm tmw i'm workin agn
hahahahz
reali reali reali bored
am at a lost as to wat to do now
need smthin to do
maebe, juz maebe
i'll go and have an early nitez

catch ya'all arnd the island
nitez

2007-05-11T02:16:00.000+08:00

BLINDED BY THE MIST OF DECEPTION

well well well
someone is in love
i am so hapie fer that fella
hahahz
after all the thins that he said
after all the rantings about love
oooh, and he's the firx to admit among us,
that he's in love
hahahhaz

told u it aint over till the fat lady sings
hahahhaz
aiyer still dare to deny to me jz now
KAYSIAO
hahhahaaz
man o man, hw love can change a man
hahahahaz
next thin i noe, he mite no longer be single

that would leave us guys who are still single
hhahahaz

well leavin me still unlucky.

....i see u everyday, and i admire ur every smile....
when thins are not ok, u make me feel everythins worth my while,
....i'm feelin it, but i just duno how to talk....
cuz i dare to say, but i dont dare to walk the walk
....shld i say smthin or shld i not?....
are we tying a ribbon together? or will i just be caught in a knot?

sadly never after
from me to you
urs truly
-rid-

2007-05-09T17:54:00.000+08:00

DLA INTAKE '06

gotta thank the girls and guys who celebrated wiv me today
after all i'm 18!! hahahaz
i feel so happiee ler
well after all this is a proper celebration compared to the last few years back
where beatin, and strippin were the celebration
but
today there were creamy cakes, birth day song, candles, girls(sorie i meant ladies) and also
i can never escape from this no matter where i go
the whackin and the humiliatin prank
saded sial

well the ladies bought the cake
alia, mija, syaz, kb, linen
and i gues the guys
zee, haz, adee, andy and iman
they were there for the bashin time
haahahahaz

kinda shocked actuali
and honestli i was touched
i mean, like, i never had cakes u noe
well except ferr my famili buyin one fer me
but yeah i mean frens la
hahahaz
it was so sweet of em la
i didn noe hw to react sia

worst still
i cut the cake like a kid!!!
it was messy and stuff
well i cant be blamed man
i told ya, i dont normally cut cakes
the last time i did that was like what
5-6 years ago
hahahaz

well i got no idea who was mastermind
but whoever it is
a hundred thanx to ya'all
the cake was nice thou
reali choclaty
hehehex, almost choked on the cream
i had to finish up the cake
wiv all the cream and stuff
i felt like throwin up after all that cream
but yeah i kinda finish the whole thin

ITS NOT OVER YET: THE PRANK AND MY HAIR

i tot that was the end, but yeah
the beatin
it came
ahahahaz
i tink zee came up wiv this idea, jackass u
it was like he gav me one onli ar, and i wanted to thank him for that
then HAZ, he punched me like12 times?? cuz he said he still had 6 more
this bugger dont giv me face one, punched me like a bag
then ADEE oso, hahahz he injured his fist while punchin me
at firx my the brunt of the punchin hurt, but eventuali it felt gudd la
smhow i like bein punch after all tat
i noe andy and iman didnt touch me
then zee asked everyone, includin the girls to come and hit me
so i like bend down lor, let everyone tap me
THEN THE TWIST IN THE STORY CAME....
*SPLAT* on my back and my head
ARGGGHHHH NOT MY HAIR!!!!
it was yogurt
four flavours smore, blueberrie, aloevera, smthin and the most
obvious of emm all, MANGO
i smelled like mango for the rest of the day la!!!
and my HAIR!!!
alamak nooo laaaaa
saded sia
hahahz
it was ZEE!!! u noe i hate my hair being messed up!!
sorie MIJA, i had to look for smone to share the yogurt wiv
and u were the nearest
hahahahz
sorie ler
had to clean myself up
thank god i came prepared
for a beatin
didn noe there was a yogurt
thank adee for the spare shirt

ahahahz, man, this is a memorable bday fer me
reali reali appreciate it all
hahahz thanx guys!!

and fer the question that popped out in the middle of it all,
...."who was the firx to wish me?"......
hehehx, well gues fer urslf guys!

gtg ciao!! weeee~

2007-05-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

09-05-1989.(18 years ago)
09-05-2007.(Present)
Finally I'm 18, Best Wishes And Looking Forward To The Next 365 Days Of Being 18!

2007-05-06T23:09:00.000+08:00

FIRST THINS FIRST

RED DEVIL
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MANCHESTER UNITED ARE THE BARCLAYS ENGLISH PREMIER LEAGUE 2006/2007 CHAMPIONS!! UNITED FOR LIFE!

I DONT WANT TO BE FORGIVEN, I WANT TO BE UNDERSTOOD

its hard to be misunderstood
when people think i am always on the wrong side of stuff
that i am always commiting mistakes
all i want is to be understood, not to be forgiven for my actions

i want you to noe

i have a reason
why i did what i did
i didn do it for nought
what i did, i didn do it for me
but i did it for you......

worked at sentosa yesterday
workin wiv mike was fun
but kinda saded when i heard helen is posted out
and mike mite go smwhere else as well
bad news all over
oh and aiza is goin home tis satday
saded when a fren is goin away ferr gudd

then went shoppin at bugis street
wiv achini
not bad, alot of walkin around
i ended up buyin stuff as well
bought myself a pair of shoes and a shirt
lolx
tempted like hell
and she smhow 'accidently got a free t-shirt' not gonna say how thou
ahahhahz
ask her for tips on how to do it

haz called me
jio go karaoke
hmm saded reali wana tag along
then he jio me go to his fren kak eve home to lepak
oso wanna go, but sial la, i no transport home lei
sorie cant tag man

chris and lokping jio me out oso
met up wiv the haagen family after the shoppin
at eski bar in holland v
smokin and drinkin(i didn)and jz talkin to chris
lol
smones in love
aiyooooo, so sweet
hahahahaz. happie fer him
life is lookin up fer him
they ate supper, talked alot wiv lokping, my mentor
and jz enjoy whatever lil time i had left wiv the shop

my chapter of life at haagen in holland is gonna b over soon
my frens, no my famili i made there
soon gonna go out, movin away
hope lokping and qiu can move to sentosa wiv me
saded
from what i see, the shop is sooo in a mess durin operation
holland v outlet cannot work wivout its own kitchen
take away and kitchen cannot b the same
confirm collapse
chris new job, rennie CQ, sharon and the girls goin to velo, lokping findin new job, qiu,hazel,yus,jeff, me all found new job, the rest, well they too startin to move on
well as long as we all meet up and do stuff like a famili
thins wont change that much
i cant believe it, but this has come to an end so soon

watch spider-man3 wiv famili
nice sia, i love the emotional rollercoaster in the movie
and the words they use
oh so beautiful

but i tink what mary j did to peter wasnt ryte

-she shldnt have jz walked away to harry for company

-she blames him for kissin gwen, yet she kisses harry

-at least peter did explain the reason y he did what he did

-that gwen was just 'the girl in class' while mary j was his 'girlfriend'

-y u nvr tell me abt her?? MJ asks, hellloooo if peter talk too much abt her u mite get jealous ryte??? then fite also. its better he told gwen abt u then praise gwen infront of u.

-she gets angry and walk off, then tells him not to go after her, err, but y u go to harry????? are u so desperate?????

-and when peter called to talk, she tried to play the cool game, then when he puts down the fone
there she was tryin to pick up the fone....stupid.....

-does confiding in harry, dancing and foolin with him, kissing him justify matters??
peter didn kiss gwen on stage cuz he was desperate, its cuz it was a public affairs issue, he didn confide to gwen in a way u did wiv harry, goodness, hw stupid can MJ be.....

-also, cuz of her kissin harry, this led him to tinkin he mite hav a chance, which of cuz wasnt true as she stops halfway thru a great kissin moment(hellooo, i want more, not jz for u to stop, EVEN I WLD BE A GOBLIN IF THAT HAPPENED TO ME!!!!)

- then causes peter to be mad as well, cuz of ur mistakes, u push the blame on to him, and then u accuse him, then u walk away from him, and expect him to return and everythin wld be forgotten and forgiven

-damn u MJ

girls huh,
they are so complicated, wat they do is ok, but what we do is a sin
ain that stupid?
haiz, girls y r they so indecisive
not all girls btw, jz those that matter the most

at least to me

nite ya'all

AMAZING RACE:HAAGEN DAZ

MY WORKING BUDDY,QIU, WHO LOVES RAIN TO THE CORE, NVER TOOK A PIX TOGETHER LIAO, KINDA SADED WE ALL GOIN AWAY SOON, SO TOOK ONE AT ESKI BAR

RIDUAN

SIGH, I MISSIN IT OREDIE

the girls that were there that nite
-QIU
-SHARON
-HAZEL
-NADIRA AND SHINMIN
-RUIYING

goodbye now or never!

2007-05-04T19:36:00.000+08:00

THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY

feelin kinda bored at home here
bro and dad out to gramma house
mom restin in her room, later goin to work
here i am, in my room,
music playin in the background
reali bored

smhow, i jz dont feel like doin anythin
wana slep, not slepy enuf
wana eat, too full
wana watch tv, nothin's on
all i can do is lie on my floor
face my laptop
and blog abt my life

had my interim review on thurs
nothin much reali, 2 words thou
to desrcribe the atmosphere
utter boredomness
and i cant believe the lects kept on
reprimandin us for talkin in the back
for heavens sake, if the crap tat is being
presented in front is a blockbuster kinda
movie, we wont mind, but its sooooo
damned borin to jz seat there and
listen to ppl presentin the same thin
over and over and over and over and over an....
u get the idea? cause i still dont

zee and haz jz cant stop bullyin me can they?
there's this malay girl in year 1 of my course
who is, hmmmm, cute? ok lah mite be my kind
but, i wasnt particularly interested in her
why? dont ask me, cause i dont noe
a lil bit of eye contact, here and there, thats more
then enuf for me, aftr all its harmless

the other day went to her table and asked her
and her friend to let us put our stuff on their desk
and chatted abit fun, u noe, senior and junior kinda
small chat. harmless friendly banter
hahahahz, futhermore the guys were the ones who were
too SHY to ask them, so i just approached em girls
i had to talk since we wanted to use their
space to store our stuff, its called COURTESY guys

but zee and haz deem that i was FLIRTING
errr dont tink so. hw abt u zee? hehehehx
u noe what i mean dont u? tis close wasnt it???
anywayz, they then went on to giv my number to her
i was blushing not cause i was SHY, its called EMBARASS
u jack assess! hahahaz
now lots of ppl noe, but i'm ok lah, i dont mind
this kinda banter, its LOADS OF FUN

well friday didn bring much joy either
had a slack day in school
damned slack to the core,
after mornin lecture ended, didn noe where to go
ended up goin to friday prayers
its been awhile since i even did that
so, yeah, it seemed like i had a hard time
decidin if i wanna go or not
its been awhile since i even faced God
how much hav i changed? even i cant answer that....

althou my parents still preventin me
from taking bike licence, i am still gona
do it. talked to dad,the other day
abt bikes, mom wasnt there thou
he didn said anythin abt preventin me
from takin licence, but he did say that
buyin a bike that i wanted at my age
wldnt exactly be rewarding, he tinks the
bike that i wanted isnt reali worth buyin
didn hear him sayin a big NO to licence thou
that was gudd enuf fer me

i hav this thin abt scrambler or sport bikes
but ryet nw, waht catches my eye is the
R1, reali nasty piece of machine
but that is class 2, i tink, or isit 2A
but yeah, i still wana ride a scrambler
but at my height, i am soo gona fall off the bike
so yeah, the one zee recommended was err *cant seem to recall as of now*
a shorted and smaller version, tink the suspension
was adjusted or smthin
and he said i cld jz motard, and its cheap
or say he says, low maintanence as well
hmm gudd idea, tink i want that bike
i want a bike, i reali want one. *sigh*

i've blogged abt this time and agn
and its reali kinda sickening
about this four letter word that can make
or break a person, but it seems i hv to talk abt it agn

it seems that the guys and girls, not
all i mean, juz those i'm close with in the class
are dreadin love or smthin, i read their blog
listen to the reactions of the guys whenever
we talked abt that matter, and all i can hear is
negative feelins and tots abt love
oh yeah btw alia
I AM DEFINATELY NOT BLINDED BY LOVE

come on
i noe, love hurts, of cuz it does,
if its not would we yearn for it so badly?

-jz like medicine, its bitter, but
we want it badly as it makes us feel better.
yes we can live without medicine
but it will take us a long time to cure
yes we can live without love
but it will also hurt us, as we dont have anyone there for us

-in love, there's no such thin as promises
any promises made, are actuali lies constructed to shadow our perceptions
to make love look good, when its actuali ugly

-there is no painting in this entire world that looks perfect
just like there are no perfect couple in the world

-love does not mean the coming together of 2 similiarly perfect and gorgeous people
its actuali the coming together of 2 entirely different and average people
this makes them look perfect, in sync and the love they share is what makes them look beautiful

-when in love
learn to accept one another, when even society wldnt
forgive each other, when even God would not
tolerate her naggin, tolerate his ranting
understand her moodswings, understand his temper
always giving in, but never giving up
she is to care for him, he is to protect her
no promises, just reminders
because its better to not promise what u cant keep
and to never ever lie, but to be truthful

how can a person hate love? ironic to use both
words in the same line. failin in one, or failing
in a dozen relationship does not mean
we should fear another new one

...i see her the first time, and all i can sing abt is her beauty...
...i eye her, and i admire her day after day...
...its hard to avoid her,as i see her through glass...
...my heart flutters at her sight, feelins start to blossom...
...my head says one thin,
but my heart tells me another...
...undecided, yet divided...
...the fear for love or is the need for love stronger?...
...which do i want, how do i decide?.....

the words 'I' doesnt mean me, or anyone its jz sm thin that i wanted to type out

not in the mood for love as of now
but the guys seem to tink otherwise
admiration, affections, its different
i admire doesnt mean i hav feelins for that one person
thins in my life are jz not stable as of now
so yeah, lemme settle one thin at a time

one step at a time for me

hehehx, enjoy!

2007-05-02T22:48:00.000+08:00

hahahz

nothin to do

kinda bored, so loaded sm pix

enjoy yeah

LAU PA SAT MAKAN FEST